New Year, New Resolutions ~!!!

Rite, tis yr is finally comin to an end real soon & I wana jot down my resolutions for Yr 2010 !!

1) Cut down on shoppings !

2) FIND A RICH HUSBAND !!

3) Study harder than b4 !

4) Work harder at work !

5) Treat my family better !

6) Eat healthier & exercise more !

7) Save more $$$$ in my bank !

8) Stop cursing so much in morning when I step into offc !! =P

9) Treat pple ard me better ! (I will try bt pls dun step on my tail !!)

10) FIND A NEW & BETTER JOB !!!!

Seriously, since e start o tis yr, I been tellin myself to find another job & no matter how many applications tt I sent out, NO ONE SEEMS TO BE INTERESTED TO EMPLOY ME !!! Arghz !!!!

Okay, back to wrk for nw. I m so tired & slpy !!!

Prayin hard tt next few days I b fine at wrk !!

Merry Xmas to all !!!

Time reali flies & it's gona b a brand new yr !! Hope tt yr 2010 will b even better for myself & everyone !!!

New yr new resolutions !! I m prayin hard for a better wrk condition & tt I able to clear all my modules w jus one shot !! God Bless ~!! =)

It's tis time o e yr wer I m reali feelin alot alot o emotions within me.... It's been 2yrs n memories reali stay w me for gud ? hmmm. Well at least it dun quite kill me fr inside for nw!! =) Mayb I shld compose a tribute jus for him bt den agn, he is no longer worth my time writin abt him !! hahahhhahaha..

Okay pple. I gona hit e sack soon thou it's xmas eve !! hahahahahaa !!!

All o a sudden I got e urge to read e bible ~ hmmmm.. Shall spend my time w my bible tml ~ God Bless !!

Annoyed !! Freakin annoyed !!!

I stepped into offc w my mp3 on & e moment I took off my earphones, I SIMPLY CANT HEAR ANYONE ELSE !! WTF ?!?!?!?! It came to a pt tt I was literally screamin at my colleague to get him to speak louder !!! Reali WTF !!! Why was tt so ??? Cos everyone were tokin at e top o their voice !!

Can I curse vulgars nw ?? ARGHZ ~!!!

Mayb I m jus annoyed by someone in particular in offc & accumulative aggressions grew within me. Fck.

At times I dun understand y izit tt dey gotta TOK tt LOUDLY or y izit tt LOUD TOKINs r nt allowed in offc ?!?!?!

Okay, I m cranky today. Jus dun piss me off for today.

Saturday gona b spent at hme !

I jus woke up nt long and had my first meal for e day !!! I guess it shall b my only meal for today as I m havin e pukin sensation agn ? zzzz. Yday was 'fanastic' as I only had one proper meal for b/fast & Hi-Tea was vomitted out ~! =(

Yday evenin I met Mama & Karen ! Went for a short round o shoppin & Richel came to meet us aft his wrk in Suntec ~!! hahahaha. As usual, we bitched like b4 !! And silly Richel said I m a 'xiao tao ji'. Faintzzzzz.. It has been a long time since someone actually commented tis on me !! Arghz ~!! I m still as childish as b4 ?? Rite .. But it somehow made me feel young, since agn !!! hahahahaha !!

Did some gift xchange w Mama & I love e bag she got for me ! I was still tinkin last few days o wad handbag to get for CNY 2010 & ta-dah ~! I got a new bag !! hahahaha !! It's a purple colour tote bag & seems big enuff for me to throw all my barang-barangs into it !! Thanks Mama for e nice bag !! I hope tt she will like my gift for her .. Oopz. Nothin for Annie & e rest, yet. I m tinkin wad to get for them ~! hahahahaha. But it seems tt dey got no lack o anythin..... Oh well, mayb I will drop by Jur Pt to see see look look since I cant do hsehold chores today as my thrumb is swollen n 'injured'. I m on bandage for my left thrumb since last nite. hurrrrrr. Felt so crippled !!! Gotten a small lil tee for Lil Jovial ~!! It's a meow meow tee !! Mama told me Lil Jovial like cats & I got a tee wit a cat printed on it for her !! I recalled tt Lil Jovial was waitin for me to go find her on e last Open Hse but ended up I did not turn up !! hur hur hur. So cute o Lil Jovial !! =P

I got myself 2 new shorts fr Marina Sq - New Future Jeans @ $59 !! hahahaha !! Karen got herself 7 sets o clothings inclusive o tops & jeans !! And we b gg for BAB open hse tml for another rd o shoppin !! I tink i nid leggings & Mama said she will reserve some dress for me to try on too !! hahahahaha !! My ladies r my personal image consultants !! Nice knowin them !!! 

Okies, tt's all for nw. I m tired & I tink I gona puke soon. Dang. 

Have a gud weekend ahead !!! Happy xmas shoppin & take care !

Temptation tt Kills !!

I m tinkin o how to spend my tis weekends. hahahahaha. I need to go shoppppppinnnn ~!!!!!

Tml evenin I b mtg Mama for a short while aft my wrk & I m tinkin wer to go for my xmas shoppin !! Sat I tink I b mtg some o my BAB girls ~! hahahaha.

Come tis Sunday, I guess I b mtg Karen to go to e Open Hse... Hmmmmm...... I wana buy alot alot o stuffs ~!

Xmas jus ard e corner & I'm gettin excited cos o Lisa's weddin !! =P

Rite, these r my random tots ~!

Back to wrk .. hahahahahaha !!

Towards e end o e week.......

It's finally mid-week. I cant wait for weekends.

Wrk was fine for mon n tues. Today was kinda slack as I was told to attend some workshop tt shall end tml b4 lunch.

I m feelin emo out o a sudden. Tots o e past somehow strike me like lightning. Mayb I m too tired as I cldnt slp last few nites. Tml & Fri shall b super long day for me.

Fri evenin I gona meet mama for awhile as I had brought some her stuff for our lil xmas gift xchange !

Rite, I brought $160 worth o SkinFood products yday !! I'm lovin' it !! Korean products all over agn !! hahahaha !!

Okay, I tink I m not in e mood to blog today.

Enjoy e pics pple. =)

BAB Fashion Show : Grand et Beau ~!

Yday event was superb !! With abt comin 20 models modellin on e stage, dey had exhibited gowns, casual wears, dresses, sexy corsets & lingeries !!! All o them were lookin gud !! And not forgettin to mention the make-up artistes and the backstage helpers !!

Personally, I helped out at the recept and subsequently was told to go up e stage to help out for the 'prize-givin' for the lucky draw. It was fun n thrillin !! hahahahaha .. I met alot o pple yday n some fren o mine managed to identify themselves for knowin me for yrs wen I dun quite rmb him !! hahaha !! My 'badminton' photographer was dere too ! hmmmm.. But I din managed to 'pao' him as he was bz w his photo-takin n I was bz 'foolin' ard w my ladies aft e fashion show !!

More pics to come aft Constance mama upload her collection for us !! hehehe .. Have a gud sunday ahead ~!

I guess it's time for me to invest in some gud digi cam myself ~! =P Any recommendation pple ??

Weekends gona b over !

I got my results few days back & I pass all e modules for tis sem !!! So dang happy !!!! But somehow I was feelin depressed aft which. I do not know how long more can I reali survive for attending nite classes.

KC failed one o e module & he said he's considering to continue or not. Seriously, I m hoping much tt he will finish off tis whole course. Thou I will nt b in e same class as him bt I do hope tt he will b able to get e cert in times to come !

One more week to the fashion show. I m gettin so dang excited. But I m alil annoyed cos tt same mornin, I gotta go back sch to do some stupid registration agn for my blardy course. Dang. So much for dumpin so much cash, I gotta waste my time to go down to e sch to settle these shitty stuffs. My god.

Sunday is comin to an end soon. I been feelin lethargic for tis whole week, largely due to my time spent on shoppin. hahahahahaha !! I brought 3 pairs o shoes tis week !! Rite, no more shoppin till next mth. As next mth will b e final mth to shop for CNY !! hahahahahahaha.

Cant wait till ltr part o e mth too. Xmas & New Yr !! We b gettin extra days o rest ! And aft which, my class shall resume. Tis comin sem will b w/out Aubrey & KC. Well well well... Life goes on ........................ 

Counting down to the Fashion Show !!

Last weekends were cool. Fri I was out w my gang till late & I wanted to head back to old hse area for supper but apparently it was Hari Raya Haji & yea, stallholders had their PH as well. hahaha. Drove down to Bukit Timah for our Teochew Porridge when dinner was sinful Marche @ Vivo. =)

Sat's open hse was great !! I enjoyed myself tt very day tgt w e rest o my ladies !! hahahahha !! Steamboat almost cos my stomach to explode ! hahahhaha .. Cant wait for e fashion show !!!

Shopping Spree... AGN !!

Yes yes, I was on shoppin spree yday agn !!!

Was out w Feel Mama n sis & I got myself 2 new dresses n a pair o flats !! By chance, I got myself a free clutch bag !! hahahaha .. So so so happy !!

I wept badly on fri nite cos I found out some sickenin facts tt had been buggin me for long. Anyway, I had come to term tt I shld move on & I mus move on. At times, I find myself bein a very stupid person cos I been livin in delusion !

For the past 2yrs or so, I been tellin myself things that were otherwise. Meanin, I couldnt accept certain facts & I chose a dumb way to convince myself to live w it wen I was once given a chance to protect myself against these harms. Yea, fri nite's cry was abt how foolish I m & wasnt abt wad I was told tt every nite as I m aware all these while o these happenings.

Perhaps tis time rd I recover fast. I m feelin better thou at times wen I m all alone I would tink o e past. Let's jus say, it takes abit o time to recover fr it.

Okies, time for dinner. Mum & Dad r hme tis evenin !!

Back to wrk tml & I m lookin forward to tis comin long weekends !! I'll b havin gathering w my ladies !! hahahahhaa !!

See u guys soon !!

Weekends gone, A brand new week ahead.

Tml back to offc ! I gona see tt old woman. Dang. I dread gg to wrk nw. Dun ask me y. I bet u pple knw it better than I do !

Yday met mama to collect my dresses ! It's sooooo nice & sweet !! Worth my money ! =P Went shoppin w Bro & Auntie Ang & I spend hundreds agn !! Hur hur hur hur .. It's nv a weekend tt I can go w/out makin a big hole for my pocket. Someone tell me Y ?? He once said to me tt I shld change away my spendin style cos I no longer earnin as much as b4 !! Rite !! Tis shall b my no. 1 new yr resolution !! *Like Real* Mama had termed me as SHOPPING QUEEN !!!

I m slackin at hme cos I m nauseated agn. zzz. Giddy spells jus dun go away fr me.. =(

Mr. Lim called me last nite & we spoke for an hr. He asked if I visited JoJo & I m feelin lousy as he reminded me of how bad my time management is. zzzz. I was supposed to visit JoJo yday bt I din realised tt I had appts prior to my promise to her. zzzz. Yes, I MIA agn. hur hur hur. Sry Jo !

Okay, I gona b bz for e next few weekends. And I screwed up my appts for next sat agn. My god. Wen will I ever get wiser in plannin my time ?!?!?! Hur hur hur hur..

Okay, migraine is killin me nw. I gona slp. Gud nite pple & Have a gud week ahead !!

No more online shoppin for me !!

Yea, as today's header suggested, NO MORE ONLINE SHOPPIN FOR ME !!! I'd better stick to my mama's shop as much as I m concern !!

Ni Nia Ma !! I purchased 2 dresses fr tis particular website & seriously, I m disappointed w their services !! If I can ever sue them, I shall file against them for MISREPRESENTATION !! My grievances go like tis : 1) First dress purchased, measurements nt according to e website & so I gotta bring it for alteration. 2) Second dress purchased, SAME THING HAPPENED & IT'S EVEN MORE OUTRAGEOUS !!! I gotta pay extra to use registered mail to mail e wrongly sized dress back to those fellows & den I GOTTA PAY ANOTHER $3.80 for them to use registered mail to mail e dress back to me !! Muthafcker !!!! The measurements on e website is UTTERLY WRONG !!!! Y do I have to compensate for their mistake ?!?! NB lo !! I gona boycott tt website & I gona make it BIG !!!

In my email to them for e exchange, dey can even replied me sayin tt everyone got THEIR UNIQUE WAY OF MEASURING & THEREFORE THOSE MEASUREMENTS WERE FOR REFERENCE PURPOSES !! KNN !! U dun have a fckin physical shop & definitely pple will HAVE TO SOLELY RELY ON MEASUREMENTS GIVEN wad ?!?!?! Which part o their fckin brain is NOT functionin ?!?!?! Apparently I tink those pple shld b destroy by their own piece o art !! Arghz !! Dang pissed !!!

With me spendin extra 10bucks for these postages, I m fine BUT y cant these brainless fckers use alil teeny bits o their empathy ?!?! Ni Nia Ma !! Stupid la !! I wont even allow them to earn a single cent fr me anymore. If I ever see any nice design fr them, I shall ask my mama to source for e same design too !! At least my mama's more trustworthy & her service is up to e mark !!! Arghz !!! Dang angry laaaa !! Perhaps it mite still boils down to e fact tt I cant resist shoppin temptations ! hur hur hur .. =(

It's fri !! And I gona collect 4 new dresses fr my mama tml !! So excited !! Paid up for the dresses since a mth ago & I cant wait to see my new dresses !! I dun even know if I can wait till next yr CNY to wear it or m I gona use it first !! hahahahahaa !!!

It's peaceful today as no govt agn !! There will b a mass workout ltr on in e day & I m gettin excited too !! hahahaha ..

Have fun tis weekends pple !! I gona b on shoppin spreeeeeeeee ~!!

Migraine agn.

Migraine hit me big time agn. I been popping panadol down my throat for umpteen times since 3 days ago n it seems to get worse ! Tis prove to show tt my wrk is e source of my stress. NI NIA MA !!

I had made a decision tis mornin, which was a rejection o an job interview, in e hope o better wrkin condition in my current wrkplc. I duno if I had done e rite thing bt I reali hate changes nw. As I grow older, I nid more n more security. Fren ask y dun I go back to sales n my answer to them is : I cant take thrills anymore. Thrills as in e huge differences in my payslip evry mth & for e fact tt I m furtherin my studies nw, I cant take much heavier load apart fr my studies.

It's been a week plus since my last paper last monday. It was rather disastrous as I went 'blackout' agn in e exam hall. zzz. I forgot wad I m supposed to do for the paper & I realised tt I was whackin away like no one biz, knowin tt I was gg at e wrong direction. Nevertheless, I was prayin hard tt I m able to get by tis sem n move on to a new sem tgt w e rest ! God bless.

As mentioned, wrk isnt gettin better. I m constantly tortured jus bcos o her so-called 'meticulous' & 'eye-for-details' attitude at wrk. Okay, I know, decision made & I shld accept it for wad it is no matter wad. Probably I jus nid to whine abit & I b fine ltr on.

Oh yes. Yday e blardy SMRT train broke down agn durin peak hour ! Tis time rd wasnt in e mornin BUT EVENIN TIME WEN I WAS DYIN TO GET BACK HME !!! Dang !! All passengers were instructed to get off tt faulty train n to wait for subsequent trains. zzz. My god. I hopped on to a train tt almost 'killed' me. Tis woman whom was standin in front o me STINK !! No, I shld say tt it was her hair tt produced PUNGENT smell. Gudness. Tt smell seems to be either no hair-wash for at least a week n was soaked in perspiration or tt old woman was basically an unhygienic one ! I almost fainted bcos o tt smell. Dang. Frankly, SMRT kip increasin e transport fare BT Y SERVICE STANDARD DROP ONE BIG TIME ??!?!? Fck up !!!!! zzzzzzz..

Okay, I cant do online shoppin anymore cos I m super turned off by e wrong measurements tt was being posted up. I ordered my 2nd dress fr tis particular website & was given wrong measurement. Delivery was prompt enuff bt only to realise tt e sizin o e dress is too small for me. zzzzz. Mayb I m stupid nt to take a bigger size bt e measurements were misleadin too !! Rite, blame it on my boobs den. zzzzzzz.

I m gona slp. Migraine is reali killin me.

I miss him alot.

Back to offc tml !

Exam finally over !!!!! hahahahaha !!! But I tink I screwed up my Law paper today. Was surprised tt LKC finished off his paper earlier than I do. hahaha ! I tink I managed to finish off e whole paper within 3hrs but I wasnt sure tt I b able to pass thou. It was dang confusin & it seems tt I got alot to write on tt answer booklet. Okay, wadeva it is, IT'S OVER !!

2months o break.. no.... 1 month o break b4 I get my result. I hope tt I will pass all the modules tgt w e rest in my class !!! =)

Accting paper was gud !! Tt left me feelin rather positive wen I left e exam hall on sat. hahaha. Aft sat's paper, LKC & I went to Jo's parent's plc. It had been a long time since we last met them. =) Chatted awhile & I headed out to meet darling & frens. haha. Tt day was a fun one for me. Reali had some gud laffs & I m glad tt I m still havin frens hangin ard w me.

Alrite. I can finally get some gud nite rest fr tonite on. hahaha. Tml back to wrk. Kinda regret nt takin one more day o rest for tml !! Well, I guess I will do it...probably end o tis end. hahahaha. No more overseas trip tis yr as I had reali reali overspent every mth. hahahhhaa. It seems tt I can NV stop shoppin, b it online or on e ground. hahaha. Someone pls lock me up !!!

Rite. I gona shower n slp soon. Gud nite all.

I will miss him very much.

Few days b4 Acctings Exam

Gudness gracious me !!! I screwed up OB paper yday.

Trust me, I went blackout upon steppin into e exam hall. I had no cold sweat breakin out but jus e natural tendency to forget everythin single detail tt I had read thru for the past few days. How bad can it b wen I had scored badly for e OB grp assignment. Can someone jus kill me ?!?! zzzz..

One o my classmate actually commented tt she look upon as a 'Goddess' wen she saw me listenin to music w my head swayin away w e beat n was happily MSN-ing away jus 2hrs b4 e blardy paper. hahahahaaha. She asked if I had memorised anythin & I gave her 'UH?!?! Mus memorise meh ??' hahahahaha .. she went berserk n started tellin me tt Saturday she will bring her offerings for Goddess Lynwen. hahahhahahhaa..

Okay, exam gona start w e clock strike 2.15pm. We were seated in e blardy exam hall & I realised tt pple sittin ard me r jus so fckin unfriendly. zzzz. Tt's nt e whole pt thou !! E pt is I got stressed wen I saw Cheryl walkin away aft submittin her paper wen e clock hit 3.50pm !! Den I realised tt LKC did e same aft 3mins. I almost fainted. zzzzz. Seein them walkin away fr e hall, I told myself tt since I can no longer write any better answers on e answer script, looks like I gotta break it !! Okay, I submitted my paper ard 4pm. hahahahahaha.

Almost immediately aft I got outta exam hall, I hopped onto LKC's car & started checkin e answers. I realised tt my thin hope to pass tis blardy module is gettin far-fetched. Raymond sms me in e evenin askin wad's our grp assignment grade & I almost burst out cryin. BUT wad got me kinda freak out was Raymond subsequent reply: 'Baby, dont look back now. Move on. The race is not over yet.' zzzzzzzzzz.

I was lookin thru some Masters degree courses & I told myself tt DIE DIE mus pass all these blardy modules cos I WANA CONTINUE TO GET A MASTERS DEGREE aft my Bach. sighzzz ... I wonder if tis dream o mine will ever fulfil. God Bless.

Pple, pray hard hard for me plsssss !!!

Examinations

Tml shall b my first paper !! I m gettin excited !!

LKC called earlier to book me to meet him in sch tml mornin. My paper will b aft lunch. Looks like I gona skip lunch so tt I wont doze off while writin e answers !! hahahahaha ...

I shall continue muggin away till abt 11plus & I gona hit e sack. One more week o leave & I would b back in offc.

Still tinkin if I shld go for a short holidays in December...

Wish me luckssssssssssss!!!

Random Pics

Insomnia

As e sayin goes, if u cant get to slp n seems to b tinkin abt smthin, smone.....it means smthin fishy..

Well, I can conclude tt my slpless nite occur due to my long hours of readin (I HATE ACCOUNTING!!!) n hunger as my stomach dun allow me to digest any food & therefore no nourishment down my throat. And to make sure tt I m still feelin things tt I shld, I REALI DO MISS HIM alot nw !! Okay, it's total madness as I tot I had long gave up on everythin. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

Nevertheless, I had still decided to b strong & jus move on. Nt tt I m ego bt smhw I dun see e pt o revertin to e usual situation. I m still tryin to come to term w myself. LOLz. Long way to go I guess.

Rite, back to my b*tchin session, I was on Facebook & was browsin thru some frens' profiles.. Den I chanced upon one o my sec sch fren's profile. SHE IS FUGLY !! wahahahahhhahahahaa... Seriously, bimbo-look dun get a woman anywhere. Oh boy, y cnt these singaporean women understand tis logic ?!?!?!?

Okay, no flamin allow here. I dun wana get serve w any warnin for tis mere remark here. But hilarious much tt one can change soooooooooooooooooo much over e yrs ? It seems to have reflected hw inferior complex can do to make one transform so much ?? hahahahhaha. Well, only she has tt blardy answer. =)

Third Day o my Study Leave

I tink I aint progressing fine. zzzzzz. I cant absorb wad I had read for e past few days. I guess it's gettin way too dense for me. Gudness. Stayin hme has got a big disturbance cos Auntie Ang would b tokin to me each time she come near me. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. I m lazy to go outta hse cos e stupid weather is makin me havin those giddy spells. ARGHZ !!!!

I jus did 2 hrs o Law revision & I nid a short break. hur hur hur .. I reali duno hw I can fare tis time rd. Been lucky for my previous tests & IS PRAYIN HARD TT MY LUCK MAINTAIN WITHIN ME !!!

I seriously hate Accountings. Who e fck actually invented this topic ?!?!?!? *cries*

Movin forward

Sadly, wen I chose to walk away fr u earlier on, I decided to leave u for gud.

I trust tt U din know wad was my intention. I believed tt U din know tt U had pissed me off badly tt U had cleared my threshold. I supposed tt U still do not understand hw I nid a guy to behave b it in public or in private.

Mayb I have sky high standards tt are becomin impractical.

Nw, I chose to go away fr u cos I reali tink tt I deserve better time n environment.

U do not know if U have grow up despite e fact tt U gained respect fr pple ard u. U do not know if U had let me down in any way for I been super tolerant towards u, towards ur immature acts. Perhaps U r way too comfy w me tt U jus wana 'b urself' wen U r w me & tis in turns caused me to reali brush u aside n jus move on. Many times U snapped at me & I chose to kip quiet nt bcos I m afraid o u but simply bcos I cherish & respect u as someone whom I been facin for so long.

Seriously, wadeva U had did reali pissed me off one big time. I do nt know if U have double standard btw me n ur other frens but it reali gets on my nerves wen I see tt U r treatin me differently in front o others. Wenever we r alone tgt, times spent tgt versus time spent tgt w frens r jus like north pole & south pole. Ur treatment towards me kinda tell me tt U can b a gud actor.

I had enuff o all these nonsenses. I dun wish to bother abt U, abt ur problems anymore. I had enuff shits in my life & I reali dun nid another person to add on to it. Pls dun ever expect me to give U gud attitude wen I see u e next time.

Wen I chose to walk away, dere's no turnin back.

Sat Nite

I m hme on sat nite.

Cook dinner earlier on for family & my hands r achin nw. hahahaha. Bro commented tt it's been mths since I last cook at hme & I shld do it like once evry 2 weeks. I rolled my eyes on him.

Auntie Ang is dang happy tt both me n bro r hme today w her. I told her tt I b hme evryday for e next 15days as exams r nearin !! I was tinkin hw m I gona spend my next 2 weeks at hme, studyin away most o e time ?? hahahahhaa. I was tinkin o gg Ladies Nite on Wed nite !!! =P

Went IMM tis aft w bro & Auntie Ang agn. I wanted to get tt red organiser bt dropped e idea all over agn. hahahhaa. Den wanted to get some stationaries fr Daiso bt e queue at e counter were freakin long. zzzzz. I dun wana waste time queuin up !!! Went Giant supermart & spent $170 !!! Brought alot alot o groceries & I finally got e FBT shorts aft sooooo long !! hahahahhaa. Bro was shocked upon seein hw I stacked up e trolley aft an hour o marketin wen we paid up at e counter !! hahahahhaha..

Tt was all for today. Tml, most prob I'll b hme as I reali reali nid to start my revision alr !!! Time is runnin out. Sighz. Stress index shootin up. I m kinda havin doubts tt I mite b able to make it. zzzzzzzzz. God Bless.

Okies. I gona slp sooooooooooooooon. Ciaoz pple !!

Finally !!!

My long awaited break is finally here !!!!!! I be outta offc till 2nd Nov !!!!! So freakin happy !!! Away fr 'hell' !!! hahahahahhaa .. And I gona make gud use of these 2 weeks to revise my books n notes for exams !!! hahahahhaa !!!

Things at wrk were crazy !! I reali made full use o my time to clear most of my pending cases ! It's like, I had nv feel tis kinda achievement b4 .. hahahhahaha .. I was so glad to see tt my drawer free fr files, files, documents n documents !!!!! But I trust tt I had bombed my new colleagues w tons o follow-ups to do for me. Well, thou I wont b steppin into offc for the next 15days but I told him to gimme a call if he is unsure o anything ! Tt's e best thing I can do at least.

Aft wrk, I headed to City Hall area to meet frens & I had a pleasant evenin w them. The least I can do to make myself happier. =) Dinner n catchin up w all o them. I guess we had alot to 'report' to each other... hee~

I gona study everyday at hme fr nw on. I gona make sure tt I can absorb most o my notes & to pass these modules !! I dun wana repeat any o it !! God Bless.

Rite... I jus got hme nt long ago & is waitin for my hair to get dry. I gona hit e sack soooooooon !!

B back soooooooonn. Nitez all. Ciaoz. And pls do wish me luck for my exams, yeah ? hahahaha.

PS: I miss him....

Things chose to screw up on its own !!!!

Nothin can describe how exactly I m feelin inside !!!

I m feelin so screwed up !!! Mayb tt's bcos I m ill all over agn...BUT tis feelin within me is so overwhelmin tt I jus wana throw my hp away to prevent anyone fr reachin me !!!

I stepped into offc tis mornin feelin sucky. I duno y.

I couldnt slp last nite & I duno y too. My mind was runnin like a movie film w flashbacks. I tot I was gg to die or smthin.

Okay, I guess I m too stressed up w my wrk & studies.

Leave me alone for the next few weeks pple. DUN EVER TRY TO CONTACT ME !!!

Some silly moments at wrk

I nid to scan some documents but I realised tt I cant save e file into any portable device EXCEPT FLOPPY DISK !!! Ni nia ma eh !! So I went ard in another offc askin for any spare diskettes for me to save these files but to no avail. zzzzzzzzz.. No choice, I walked back to my own offc askin ard for it & I found boxes of diskettes w my admin guy !!! hahahahaha !!! Took a brand new box fr him n headed back to the scanner, showin my other colleagues tt I'd gt a box o it to store my files & dey all gave me some disgusted looks w some lookin surprised tt how e hell I managed to find a new box o diskettes so fast. Den some commented tt I M SUPER KIA SU cos I only nid to scan 50 odd pages of docs !! hahahahahahaha.. Well, I m consider typical sgaporean ?? hahahahaha..

Back in my offc, I shouted for my admin guy & told him tt I wana kip e diskettes tt I had used. He said he gona charge me $8 for it. So I told him to b careful on e rd & my other colleagues were sayin tt I 'threatened' him !!! hahahahahahahahaa.. Rite aft tt, my admin guy said I shall jus kip e diskette for my own use !! hahahahhaa.. I m as shrewd as b4, isnt it ?? wahahahahahahahaha..

Okay, it's almost time to go hme. B back tml !!! Ciaoz !!!

Men

Can someone tell me how exactly can I handle these men ??? Okay, I m runnin outta ideas tryin to maintain these men as I m beginnin to realise tt I CANT BRING MYSELF TO B HAPPY w their presence in my life !!!!!!! Dang.

Rite, I know I know, u pple mus b tinkin tt I m tokin craps BUT I m havin enuff o these nonsensical shits !!

I m gona tok abt 3 men nw.

First man - I get to see him almost every other day. Know him for reali long time till I m abt to lose count e num o yrs ?? hahahaha. He is a nice chap BUT is a man-bitch too. He can actually take more than 30mins to decide on a simple plc to dine in. Dang. Okay, tt's reali a joke for a man who is reali a man!!!!!!! I tot I can b more MAN than he is. On top o tis, He is givin me lotsa attn nowadays till I decided to give him back some attn........... DEN he started doin things otherwise. He stopped showerin his attn to me & I started tellin myself tt he has got new & fresh targets & therefore I shld move on too. Jus wen I cant b bothered w him, he was tryin to get my attn all over agn & told me tt he has got wrk commitments tt caused him NOT ABLE TO do wad he used to do for me. I was like, WTF !!! I dun nid u to tell me all these. And nw, he said he got few women to choose fr. hahahaha ??

Second man - Another guy tt I know for yrs too & is constantly tellin how much he wana b w me n stuffs. Sadly, his words speak louder THAN ACTIONS. He can tell me all sorts o mushy & touchin lines but it jus dun wrk on me. I guess he jus wana test water & see WHICH STUPID WOMAN WLD FALL ONTO HIS TRAP ?? hahahhahhhaa. I hope I m wrong thou.

Third man - Tis guy is ultimate !! He can tell me everythin abt him & I seems to b able to tok to him abt anythin under e sun too. One thing tt puts me off is tt he is someone tt is also NO ACTION TOK ONLY. Seriously, e attn tt tis third guy is givin me dun quite get me feelin excited w his presence thou he is a gud entertainment to me. hahahahaha.

So wad's e morale o e story ?? It still boils down to e fact tt I prefer men who will take initiative & someone who can prove himself to me thru his actions !! Seeing is believing !! Talking is NOTHING.

Monday

Tis is the first monday aft 3 months o studies tt I do not have to worry if I b dang tired wen the clock hit 8pm. hahahaha. Officially tis is my study period till end o tis mth n I b gg for my exams !!! Excited ? Or stress ?? I tink I m feelin empty. Cant seems to feel any emotions within me. Hw sad.

Things aint been e same rite aft my bday.

Wrk hasnt been gud & rite nw I can feel a higher level o responsibilities wen Mdm Ang got transferred out last week. I miss her, nt bcos she wld b ard to help me thru my wrk bt it's tt kinda bond I had w her tt get me gg in my course o wrk. Well, I gotta move on for sure. Nw it seems tt my boss is 'relyin' on me to get most wrk done & I m havin tots o leavin tis wrkplc. Nt tt I do not enjoy my wrk bt I can no longer justify my efforts on e job. Sad case isnt it ?? I duno. I m tryin to maintain my attitude.

Things at hme somehow got worse ? I duno agn. I cant seems to come to term w e fact tt we r gg thru some counsellin nw. It jus stir up my emotions & causin me distress more than ever. Y cant humans b more determined?? Is tis e way God wan us to be ?? I mean, do we have to resort to outsider to resolve all these 'phobia' wen we r supposed to face it n dealt w it ?? Does physical violence get u anywhere ?? oh Fck it !! Everythin is jus so screwed.

I realised tt I canot b attached at all. Nt tt I m turnin into a lesbian bt I cant bring myself to spend time w a guy. hahahahahahaa. U know, I feel so weird wen I was asked to acc him to go shoppin over e weekends. I declined & told him tt I wana slp at hme than to b out. I guess I aint givin myself any chance at all. wahahahahahahaha. Den another him told me tt he got few targets to choose from. I was like, does it matter ?? Jus dun cry wen I choose to walk away fr u !! hahahahahahahaa. Okay, I guess I got better things to concentrate on at tis pt in time. hahahahaha. The ultimate issue here is, I finally got rid o another another him aft sooooooo long !! hahaahahahaha.

Okay, I end my random tots here. Bye All !!

Friday finally !!!!

Second day w/out my usual partner & I m still tryin hard to adapt to tis 'new' environment. Kinda hard but I noe I can do it !! Was dang happy tt she called me earlier on at my offc number !!! hahahahaahhaa... =)

Well, last fri was my bday & fren spent e nite away w me !! Happy as I got to see him too !! heeex !!

My job

U know how it feels to haf been treated unfairly ??

U know how it feels to haf suffer fr grievances ??

I m feelin real bad nw. I snapped at wrk today & belive it or not, I tear in offc.

I was triggered off by heavy wrkload & by someone in my offc - someone who chose to slack at wrk which in turns affected my morale dang badly.

It seems to be a lousy after-effect rite after my bday !!!!

Mdm Ang be leavin tis offc aft tml. I duno how life gona b aft tt. I kinda foresee myself gg thru some more rough patches ahead. I had nv felt tis way b4.

It's like, pple say dere r stress up cos o wrk & hw abt me ??? My wrkload is dang heavy nw & I gotta study too !!! My exams r comin but I still make it a pt to deliver my wrk, well. I felt real drained recently.

Boss anticipated tt I wont stay long in tis job & tdy I told him tt I m lookin out for new job alr. Bad move ?? I guess so. I complaint everythin to him rite b4 lunch. It seems like I m bombarded w all e shits tt one can ever tink o in my section & to make it worse, I m reali on my own nw.

Monday Morning

Last weekends were crazy ! hahahaha. Sat was at the 'Glam' Me up event @ Orhard & aftwhich I was out w my Darling till late nite. Yea, it was tirin bt fun !! Den yday I was out doin project w my team mates. Yet another tirin bt fulfillin session !! hahahahaa.

Today bk @ wrk & I m so slpy. Thank god tt I m able to take things slow in offc today. hahaha. Class tonite & I wonder if I b gg off earlier ?? hmmm... It's gona b end o e semester !! Exams soon & I m lookin forward for my short trip either in Nov/Dec w my darling !! First time travellin w her thou. LOLz.

Rite, I b uploadin some pics tt were taken on Sat real soon. Stupid laptop o mine, do not allow me to do any edit on blogspot @ hme. zzzzzzzzzz. I can only blog in offc nw. Dang.

Okies, bk to wrk !!!

So sick o everything...

On Tuesday, I was out w my kinky boi, Darling & our lil boy !! hahahaa. Had a gud session o KTV & eventually I fell sick. Well Done.

And over e weekends, I been startin to have some mixed feelings towards certain issue. I had decided to give up on tryin to glue back all e bits & pieces. I have grown tired o tryin to maintain my feelings & attitude. I gona revert back to wad I was b4. I hate to know tt I m tryin way too hard to make things wrk wen I know it's all nothin BUT CRAPS !!!

No matter how much efforts I put in, things still screw up & it jus dun wrk e way I wan it to b.

My wrkload gettin heavier & my studies r tedious. I duno how long more I can hang on. Thou my accts test passed relatively well, it somehow told me tt it was my lecturer bein lenient cos someone actually almost scored full mark !!!!!!!!!! NB !!!! Initially I tot it is a morale booster but it was proven otherwise.

Okay, my migraine is back. I gona rest awhile & head to sch for accts test tonite.

God bless !!

Weekends !!

I m gona go for a rd o shoppin tis evenin w Kinky Boi !! LOLz.

And my weekends gona burn due to sch commitments ? hahaha. I duno but I have gt more things to do apart fr project meetin w my team mates. Dang. I m seriously lackin o slp n my dark rings r gettin fr bad to worse & my body is alr protestin against me nt havin sufficient rest. siggghhhzzzz !!

Wad's more hurtin to me is tt I gona have a 'change in my wrkin environment'.... No, I m nt resignin, yet. Bt I gona have a change o partner. Sighz. Tt's reali smthin tt I HAD NV EXPECTED to happen so fast. U know, I m consider new to e job thou I m in my job for more than 13mths & it always seems tt I m so reliant on my partner cos she's dang gud in her job. Nw tt she's gona leave me soooooooooon, I do not know how to handle future wrk. Tis is partly e reason y I dun allow frens ard me to b dependent on me cos e side-effect can b rather drastic, smthin like wad I m facin nw.

I been rather emo for the past few days tt I jus cant concentrate in wrk. I m so moody till I can even get some nitemare at nite. Gudness. I hope I wnt get depression n stuffs.

God Bless.

Have a gud weekend ahead. I m kinda excited for tml. I duno y. LOLz.

Preparin for e long week...

It's monday & I was so bz in e mornin. Meeting, phone calls, draftin letters & stuffs.... WEN WILL I BE MORE FREE ???!?!?!

I b gg movie tml wit Mandy. I nid to relax myself jus one day b4 my freakin Law test. zzzzz.

I m prayin hard tt I m able to get by my freakin course. I DUN wish to repeat any modules at all. Dang.

Okay, back to wrk.

I be havin class tonite. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Rainy mornings

U know how it feels like to wake up in the morn, realisin tt it's rainin & u jus hope to continue lyin down on ur comfy bed to rot thru e whole day ??? Oh crapz, I struggled to get myself outta bed for e past few morns & it feels weird tt no one is givin me morn calls any longer. Dang.

Rite, mid week finally !!! 2 more days to weekends & I m havin law class tonite. I b gettin outta offc early today to meet my darling !!! No, nt for leisure BT to go chinese physician !! I m havin bad bodyache, my ankle hurts & my stomach is still nt well. hur hur hur.

Mon nite I sneaked away fr class during tea-break & I m wonderin if I wld do so tonite !! hahahahahaa. I duno bt my body is gettin way too tired to go on ?? hahahaha. It's like I dozed off as early as 10pm on nites tt I've gt no class & wakes up as late as 6.45am to prepare for wrk. Dang. How rush can it get !!!

Okay, start o fastin mth & I m stayin in offc tgt wit my kakis bt wit myself munchin away. Hmmmm. I promised myself to do partial fast & I gona fulfil tis promise !!! No, nt for diet bt for smthin spiritual !! Yea, I bet u pple mus b tinkin since wen I m so religious !! hahahaha. I m always one, jus tt I kept my mouth shut !!! muahahahahahaha.

And I gona start wrk soooooooooon. I dun wana caught doin smthin 'illegal' here. LOLz.

Update sooooooooooooooooooooooon.. Tata !!

I m cranky, grouchy & negative today !!

Fck these monday blues !!!! I m feelin so rundown today !!!!

U know, it's like, I feel tt I wana resign fr my job, I wana screw pple ard me, I wana snap at everyone, everything & I jus wana float in my own personal space today w/out pple intrudin my privacy !!! I wan no disturbance.

I m badly mind-fcked by someone. Yes, tt someone. Tt new someone whom I allowed to disrupt my life for the past few weeks. Dang. How dumb o me.

And I seriously hate it wen some ATTACHED MEN OUT DERE, ASKIN ME IF I M KEEN TO BE THEIR LONG-TERM LOVER !!! KNNBCCB !! How itchy can these men get ??? Apparently their lil bro tink better than their brain.

I reali pity their gfs who r kept in e dark o all these STUPID DOINGS.

These men r gettin e best o both worlds. Fck.

Okay, no doubt tt I m feelin abit wrong today bt somehow I m sober enuff to know wad's rite n wrong.

Friday !!!!!

It's friday all over agn !!!! Weekends are here !!!!!! wooooo hooooo~~!!!

Okay, for no reason, I duno y m I so excited abt it bcos I b havin class tonite & is wrkin tml mornin too. LOLz. I m wondering if anyone would date me out tis weekends. LOLz. I m missin my Darling thou. =) And is also wonderin if he would ever wana meet me tml or smthin?? hahahaha. Oh Crapz. I b muggin away over e weekends cos o my next upcomin test !!

I wana watch movie all o a sudden & I feel like gg outdoor too. All these sudden craves kinda freak me out cos I m only lidat wenever I M STRESS !!! Dang............ But den agn, I guess I m stress up cos o one issue. zzzzzzzz.

Tis issue kinda bothers me for e past few weeks at least. It's nonetheless the matters o e heart affairs. zzzzzzz. I duno. It's givin me mixed feelings. I wan it yet I dun wan it. And tt fellow seems to mind wen I m tryin to get away fr him. LOLz. Rite, I m tokin abt another person here, not tt HIM tt I had jus mentioned earlier on. LOLz. =P

Everybody been tellin me tt it's obvious tt smthin is gg on wit him towards me BUT I choose nt to take it into consideration COS HE DID NOT confess or smthin. On e otherhand, it bothers me wen I feel tt he's tryin to 'mind-fck' me. hurrrrr.. It's unbearable, trust me !!! And I gona do back e same thing to him too.

I appreciate his attn towards me. I wouldnt deny e fact tt I m enjoyin it too. keke.

So e morale o e story is, I gona drill him n make him tok !!! ahahahahahahhaa. Okay, I know I m bein super-duper random here. =P

I gona slp. I m havin migraine since last nite.

Happy Lunchin dear all !!!

Random Rants....agn

I m soooo tired cos my body been soooo weak !!!

Nauseous daily and yes, my cramp is back !!!! Aft 4mths.... zzzzz. Ridzwan was suggestin tt I shld fast wit them fr next week on to allow my stomach to rest. hur hur hur. U know, pukin daily is a much difficult 'job' as compared to me doin hsehold chores. zzz. Oh God, I m seriously havin enuf thou alot commented tt I had lose much weight. =(

Monday jus submitted tt sickenin assignment & 2 weeks more to my Law test. Dang. LKC reminded me to start studyin nw. Seriously, I was tinkin tt tis weekends I shld go out to meet fren n to pak tor BUT apparently I was not given tis blardy opportunity at all. Reality sux !! Or mayb I shld say LKC reminded me o too much stuffs !!!

Okay, I had uploaded LKC's pic into my FB's album & tt caught someone's attn. =) I mean, tt spark off some tiny-winy funny tots. LOLz. LKC, stop tellin me tt no woman likes u cos I feel tt u r not-bad lookin & on top o e fact tt u drives, I tot it would b easier for u to find gf ??? LOLz. But den agn, I trust tt U nid no 'lambor/ferrari' to support for e rest o ur lives !! kekeke. Okay, NO PUN INTENDED !!!! Aft bein fren for a decade here, I will do u, LKC, a favour by askin tt COSPLAY gal in class if she's attached or smthin ok ?? Wait for my gud news !!!! LOLz.

I've been havin pimples outbreak cos I did nt get sufficient slp for comin 2 mths !!! My body is dang heaty tt I get lotsa ulcers. =( Thou I managed to lose some weight nw, I tink I look HAGGARD !! NB !!!! Wen would I b able to get enuff slp at nite & b able to get a normal daily routine............ hur hur hur..

It's been 4 days since we last tok. Dang. He went MIA. Wer e hell is he ???? He is reali makin my life seein alil bit o hope BUT I know it's all smokescreen !! hahahahahahaa.

Alrite, back to reality. I gona slp durin tis lunch hour.