I am who I am

I am who I am ..... Cos i m e one & only L Evil Q ....

I am a Libra lady who is ...

Diplomaitic and urbane.Romantic and charming.Easygoing and sociable.Idealistic and peaceable.

and i can b .......

Indecisive and changeable.Gullible and easily infuenced.Flirtatious and self-indulgent.

But the most scariest character abt me wld b .........

I can b very AGRESSIVE to achieve wad i wana achieve.

I love myself & pple ard me .... unless ...

tt person wana make me a bitch.

I set high standards cos i know i dun wana settle for smthin less....

BUT some bitches ard me always think tt life's a bitch wen ....

DEY DUNO how pathetic dey r...

I like men who r smart & not lard

I like men who r tall & not lanky

I like men who r passionate & not burnin hot

I like men who r handsome & not ugly

I like men who drive & not penniless

I like men who give diamonds & not flower

Lastly, I like men who tok & take action!

I like bein a bitch

I like gossips

I like to stir up troubles

I like to see another person fall in their life

I like revenge

Lastly, I LUV MYSELF!

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hahahahahaha .. sorry for the craps agn....

I been receivin too much craps for the past 1 week.

And here i m, tryin to add on to those craps.

CNY 4th Day

I m on MC today.

Felt like a ultimate Bitch.

I hate those assholes in my life.

I wish dey would b gone !!

Back to rest.

And tis is my blog wit my personal say. If u pple got any prob wit my thoughts n says, come to me directly. I welcome all comments wit no action taken.

Well, i tot blog IS A VIRTUAL plc for one to jot down their PERSONAL THOUGHTS ???

CNY 3rd Day - Back in Offc !!

My CNY was gud. Enjoyed gatherings wit my family n fren. But i kinda felt ill on the 1st day o CNY !! zzzzzzzz. Thank God tt i m still gg strong & tt i m back at wrk today !! hahaha !! Auntie Ang taxed back all my angbaos but i m okay wit it. In a way, i hope tt it can b counted as a blessing to her. =)

I gona meet Robin & Alex for lunch & I wana buy new handset !!!!!

Dotter went overseas for her short holidays on e 1st day o CNY & it was soooo sweet o her to call me b4 she was outta town !!! Have an enjoyable trip, my dear !!!!

It's my Mr. Lee's bday today !! Happy Bday, dude. May u have alot alot o returns today & close more deals !!!

Mornin time @ wrk was gud till i received an email fr someone .. hmmmm .. tt made me feelin puzzled. M i surrounded wit spies ?? Hypocrites tt speak my language while wit me & another language in front o her ?? Or jus pure luck tt she overheard wad i said ?? hahahaha. Okay, wadeva it is, i cant b bothered anymore cos I've got better things to do fr nw on !! hahahahaa. And one more thing, if i dare to say it in front o pple, it means tt I am facin my own imperfections !!! Reason bein, I dare to admit tt i DO all these shits as well. Mayb, i concentrated too much energy on tis gossip. Okay, i know i m an ultimate Bitch but i had alr warned pple - NV EVER step on my tail as i BITE !!! I do anythin & everythin jus to get back at tt pple !! And i m tryin to kick away tis lousy habit o mine.....sighz ....

Have u ever wonder y pple tend to comment on other pple's actions & stuffs ?? Simple rationale - either tt person who jus commented on smthin had faced it b4 OR e person has got justifiable views to support their own ideas as it was kinda ridiculous to have it happen in e first plc. At times i do ask myself if i ever dare to mention abt things tt i m feelin guilty abt or do i hide it so tt no one would ever find out ? Okay, i tink most o u may think tt I m bein busybody here BUT wad to do wen i got triggered off.

Okay, now, wadeva i had stated in my previous post were facts & i will not apologise for it if it ever hurt anyone out dere. PLEASE DO understand tt those lil' actions do hurt me deeply back den wen i was in e car by pple whom i used to trust?? And wadeva i m seein it now, as in rite now, rite here, i faced it myself too but wad do i got back in return ?? NOTHIN. Nothin but craps. I had my fair-share o shits & i will nv allow it to happen to me agn. I aint gona explain myself any longer cos i realised tt it's always better on my own !!!! At times i do wonder if an apology helps in anyway & now i finally realised tt SORRY IS NOT EVERYTHING & cant b used in all situations.

I had always complaint to Uncle Lau tt i m surrounded by bitches & bastards ard me. Mayb fr now on, I shall change away tis statement to - I m e bitchest BITCH among these bitches & bastards !!!

CNY eve..

It's gona b CNY soon !! hahahaha .. I m bz cleanin my hse away & slowly i m feelin e bodyache. Another sign o me gettin old... sighz .. I was complainin to Auntie Ang tt my lower back ache badly & she gave me a disgusted look wit some saddenin remarks tt i SHLD LOSE SOME FATS off my body. zzzzzzzz. Wad a thing to say wen i help her to clean tis hse for e past few days wen my wound has been killin me... zzzzz.

Today Auntie Ang got paranoid all over agn ! She was complainin abt Bro's gf & Bro's attitude towards her. She's gg crazy tinkin tt Bro dun respect her cos o his gf. Damn ! Women's jealousy can b a super big killer. It's like she called Bro several times on his mobile phone n he dun pick up e call? She went berserk. Den dere she goes, bombin my mobile phone as well, seekin help fr me if i m able to locate my Bro. NB la. I m always sandwiched in btw pple & i kinda had enuf ! zzzzzz. It kinda makes me detest my Bro's gf even more & i mite get harsh on his gf soon? I duno. But i hope dey do know tt wen i get violent, i can kill. zzzzzzzz. NB. I tink e best is tt i shld jus stay neutral to maintain my respect in front o Bro's gf. But if ever one day i open my mouth n tok, Bro's gf, or rather my future sis-in-law, betta wake up her idea. zzzzzzz.

Auntie Ang asked abt my personal stuffs agn, i mean, she indirectly probe into my private issues & i find it hard to explain to her wad i m facin at e moment. I told her tt i wana concentrate on my studies n career for nw & settlin down is NV in my mind. She got abit disturbed by tt. zzzz. I dun wana face those shitty issues wit any man alr as i had enuf o craps fr men in my life & rite nw, i m gratefel tt i m able to divert my attn to smthin tt's healthier. I m pretty comfy wit my life nw & i hope tt no one gona disrupt me along e way.

May e yr o cow brings all o us best luck & best health~!! Most imptly, everyone b happy in their lives ~!!! God Bless !!!!

Those were e days...

Year 2009

Year 2008

Year 2007

Year 2006


Year 2005

Year 2004

Notice e changes in me ??? wahahahahaha ... As my age gets older, i put on weight.. Which means to say, i put on abt 20kgs since i hit my BIG 2 !!! hahaha .. It's smthin tt's soooooooooo significant tt i cant help but to feel sad abt it. hahaha. Auntie Ang would remind me once a blue moon o my body width & rite nw i got super numb abt my weight n size alr. zzzzzzz.

Okay pple, i aint cam-whoring here but at times wen i get bored, i will wana make gud use o my camera!! hahaha.

*more pics on e way for viewin....

Budget Day 2009

Okay, my first Budget Day duty was fine. hahahaha. I nid nt stay till late at nite to finish off my wrk as dere's no change to anythin ! hahaha. And i m back hme, restin away. hmmmm.

I was in e sun, walkin ard in e warehouses & my vision is blurrin rite nw. I got super slpy wen i got back to offc. My Branch Head joked tt i can go paktor tonite since i nid nt wrk overtime. zzzzzzzz. It's nt as if i got date(s) nw. wahahahahaha.

My step-mum-at-wrk treated me well today. hahaha. Hopefully we r able to respect each other fr today on. I m sick n tired o fightin wit her over those issues. zzzzzzzz. Today's meetin was fine as I m allow to come up wit ideas for actions needed on audit cases. hahahaha!! I m prayin hard tt things can run smoothly fr nw on. God Bless.

Dotter said i m scandalous wen i told her i m into some guy out dere. zzzzzzzz. wahahahahahaha. For tt reason, let me make my stand clear~! I still lub my Mr. Lee & Uncle Lau as dey can reali tolerate my DaXiaoJie temper n crapz. For e other guy tt i m interested in, hopeless la !! He dun wana take any action & i oso bz ! wahahahaha. So yea, close case ok?? My dear Dotter, thou ya daddy is always bz, ScandalousMaMa (i still prefer BitchyMaMa lo!) will find a replacement for u soon, ok? wahahahahaha. And i wana tell u smthin too, I miss Mr. L !! kekeke. Dun ask me who, cos it's still my lil' dark secret. =P

R/S btw women = Jealousy ???

My blog is bcomin an online diary for me.. I seems to have use here as a channel to show my agression, happiness & grievances... Okay, back to topic, my 2nd post for e day.

I reach back hme at 7pm, as expected. Had my dinner first as i was very hungry. Den sat on my sofa to watch some tv shows & aft awhile, Auntie Ang came n joined me. We were tokin away, discussin abt some stupid tv shows & e conversation flow was fine. Outta nowhere, Uncle Chong shouted tt he's hungry n asked if Auntie Ang wana take her dinner as well & so dey proceeded for their meal at e dining table. I continue to rot on my sofa, watchin HBO channel.

Auntie Ang finished her dinner & she came back to e sofa area. Bro called back. He asked if we wana eat bak gua. At tis pt, my heart was thinkin tt as long as Auntie Ang do not nid to fork out a single cent to buy anythin, she would love to have everythin. NB. Nvm. Suddenly she tok abt Bro's gf. Interestin topic, as always !

Auntie Ang complaint abt the following issues :
1) JJ always make Bro come back hme late.
2) Bro always come back hme late cos o JJ & therefore he do nt haf enuff slp.
3) JJ refuses to come over to our hse aft Auntie Ang commented on smthin crudely.
4) Due to those crude remarks, JJ abit buay song (i guess so la !!)
5) JJ buay song, Bro will somehow F Auntie Ang.
6) Auntie Ang felt heart pain to see Bro like a slave to JJ.
7) Auntie Ang felt tt her son bein snatch away by another woman (tis is common la !! NB.)
8) Auntie Ang nt happy cos Bro dun fetch her ard in his car.
9) Auntie Ang scare r/s btw herself n Bro may get sour.

Okay, first thing first. If i m JJ & i heard those crude remarks, i wnt b happy oso BUT on e otherhand, she shld understand tt Auntie Ang may b her future mum-in-law & my Bro IS NOT her hubby yet. Secondly, Bro always come hme late does not mean it's JJ's fault as Bro mite b e one volunteerily offered to fetch her ard?? But fr wad i see abt tis, i tink if Bro dun fetch JJ ard, she will throw tantrum !! hahahahaha. Typical Da Xiao Jie temper wor... kekekeke.. So, havin enuff slp or not, Bro shld b e one controllin it & therefore Auntie Ang shld jus leave it to Bro to handle it. Thirdly, Auntie Ang always very subjective. Everythin oso go by her mood. She happy, she joke, she not happy, den god bless u wit long life. NB. Another mood swing bitch la. So yea, if i m JJ, i wnt give a damn BUT if it will drag my future hubby into trouble btw e mum n son, i will choose to take things easy. Fourth, y shld Bro always fetch Auntie Ang ard ???? Seriously, i m tryin to b objective here BUT at times Auntie Ang VERY VERY unreasonable. NB. She expect pple to fetch her as n wen she wan it to wen SHE DO NOT UNDERSTAND tt pple mite b rushin for some other thing. She's fckin demandin wen she dun understand tt everybody ard her r beginnin nt able to tolerate her shits anymore. Trust me, in future wen i drive, i will nt fetch her ard as i aint her driver. It's like she got legs, y cant she travel ard on her own ????????? I wrk far fr my hse & i can still take public transport w/out askin anyone to fetch me hme !! NB lo. Duno wad's her prob. At times, i do hope tt dere will b some joker out dere to teach her a gud lesson. Okay, sorry, i know outta topic. hahahaha.

Afterall, wen a man is ready to start his own family n is bz buildin up his career, he tend to forget certain impt aspects in his life & tis is smthin tt Auntie Ang shld b more perspective abt. She cant expect tt Bro or myself to stick by her side 24/7. Reports had shown tt youngsters nowadays nid have their own programmes wit fren or external family (e other half o urs). It bcome part o their lives tt dey wana see more things tt their parents had nt ever show them. This is e time wer parents shld learn to free their children for them to explore more & to expose wit better exposure. Sadly, alot o e older generation jus wana stick to their own dead tinkin. I m jus wonderin wen will Auntie Ang ever wake up her idea. zzzzz.

Wadeva had happened OR wadeva gona happen btw JJ & Auntie Ang, I can only kip them in prayers. It's a difficult battle to fight. At times i agree wit Auntie Ang tt JJ seems to b makin gud use o Bro & on e otherhand, I do tink tt Auntie Ang jus wana make a big fuss outta everythin. It all boils down to e fact tt my Bro is bein loved by 2 women & these 2 women do not wana let go o Bro. hahahahaha. Thank god tt Uncle Chong is somewhat havin a balanced mind. I cant imagine tt in times to come wen i tink i wana find a guy & Uncle Chong is reactin e same way as Auntie Ang, i mite tell them tt i wana stay celibate !!! hahahahahahha. Celibacy is not a sin !! hahaha.

Tinkin o how 2 women could fight jus bcos o a man, i tink it's nonsensical n yet much filled wit loves. Y cant women jus wise up & put themselves into others' shoes ?? I read some article abt women - Women r more prone to emotional attacks n therefore many times, dey would react in a very negative manners. zzzzz. I admit i m one too! hahahaha. Perhaps i couldnt (n Nv Would) understand e tension in facin such situation cos I had nv intend to settle wit any guy at all but seriously, does it occur to u tt wen we weigh too much on e consequences, we forget abt e previous established rapport among us ?? Which means, as things got developed further to another phase, we neglected e small lil' details tt led to e outcome ?? It's like pple always say tt it's easier to see each other every other day than to stay under one roof. And theorically, it is rite BUT ironically, it may not seems so rite. haha !! Complex isnt it ? To me is, one has got to LEARN to accept wad others are all abt b4 we can stay in harmonious surroundin & e prob nw is, human r too self-obssessed. zzzzzzz. I m facin one in my wrk plc nw. God Bless.

I cant find any best theory, best remedy or best solution 2 it. Back to basic, win ur enemy over. Wen we can win ourselves or win others, we can win many situations. God Bless & much Loves.

Sorry for e long long craps here. =)

'Peace' after e War ...

I came into offc, complainin here n dere agn. As always, Mdm Tan warned me abt my SAR. I cant b bothered anymore. I wan my issue to b settled here n now. zzzz. Okay, i know i m gettin more n more demandin but tt's my way to get things gg. zzzzz. Kill me, someone ?

I m kinda cranky today. Mayb it's due to insufficient slp last nite ? Or PMS ?? wahahahahahha. Women's best excuse to get away fr shits... wahahahahahaa... Dere is tis indian woman fr e other dept came over to ask me abt cases for last yr. NB. She came over n tok to me like she's e president wen she is ONLY a JO lo. Shit. She used my pen, took my post-it & scribbled on my paper w/out even sayin thank you. NB!! Sickenin indian bitch. Slap her lo. zzzzzz.

Nvm. Enuf o my complaints. I dun wish to get negative any further. zzzzz. My colleagues n I received a box o oranges for CNY or i shld say as part o e staff's welfare. zzzz. Heavy wor !! I called Uncle Chong to come fetch me hme !! hahahahaha. Mdm Tan called me lazy bum! Mdm Ang said i m too pampered alr !! Abit abit oso ask Uncle Chong come n drive me hme. kekeke. At most ltr i take over e car n drive lo. wahahahahhahaa. Bo bian lei. I m e youngest in e family, usually i do bully everyone. =P

Cant wait for CNY cos i can start wearin my new outfit. I get to see fren whom i din contact for mths. I get to go out everyday wit e excuse tt i wana go hme visits while i m out drinkin away. hahahahahaha. Cant wait, cant wait !! hahahaha. But tt do mark e fact tt i m gettin one yr older !!!

Met Rod Bro for awhile durin lunch n acc him to get his CNY clothings. He got 2 pair o jeans n a shirt fr Levis. hahahaha.

I sms Uncle Lau, askin wer he is. He called me back, askin if i misses him?? zzzz.. I tink he itchy alr. zzzzz. I told him i m kinda pissed wit my Mdm Ang & he asked me y. Scolded him nt 2b so kpo & he said he wana share my problems too. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. crapz la !!! NB !! hahahaha.. Afterall, Uncle Lau still e best for me to tok abt anythin compared to my Mr. Lee. O cos, Rod Bro is nice as well but at times i do afraid to say sensitive things to him laaaaa. hahahahahaha. I refer someone to Uncle Lau for his car dealing & tt joker told me tt Uncle Lau wana take over his lok-kok car at $5k. I almost flip. I asked Uncle Lau if he did offer tt price & he denied. Okay, I trust tt Uncle Lau aint tt dumb la hor. I joked mayb he is interested in tt joker nw & tt's y he offered $5K & he said he likes fat woman better. NB !! He reali itchy liao la !!! zzzz.

I m sittin in my cubicle, waitin for Uncle Chong to call me. Come fetch me soon !!!! If i m nt wearin heels today, i would have bring it hme myself. zzzzz. But e thing is, i m wearin a baby doll dress n thin heels, i got no choice but to ask Uncle Chong to come drive me hme & guess wad, Mdm Ang is waitin for us to go fetch her hme too !!! NB !!! By e time i reach hme, gona b 7plus liao lo !!! Hungrryyyyyyy !!! Arghz !

I miss Mr. Lee. Cos i din get to scold him for the past few days. LOLz. =P

Keke.. Baby Alaric is sooooooo cute !!!

War @ Wrk

I did smthin stupid today. I had enuf o my CBvisor & i sent an email to my Deputy Head to complain abt her. My Head spoke to me for an hour plus n he explained wad mite caused all these shits to me. I told him tt i reali reali had enuf n it's reali disturbin to have to wrk for someone like tis. zzzzzz. She's squeezin e juice outta me n my colleagues n everybody couldnt tolerate her any longer. I believe tt everyone at my wrkplc would agree on tis as well. I reckon dere will b tension btw me n her for e next few days. God Bless.

Today was a crazy day for me. I was practically standin in front of pple's cubicle to get help. And less than 3hours of my time i was sittin in my cubicle. Thanks to my step-mum-at-wrk, i gotta run abt many offc-es to get pple to help to verify some data n it is drivin me crazy cos i noe tt tis old woman would try ways n means to make things difficult for me.

I complaint tt she is not takin initiative to acquire proper knowledge n e only she do is to 'force' me n e rest to meet her DEMANDING requests wen she die die wana create a case wen DERE IS NO CASE AT ALL!! I cant take it any longer. The only thing i can tink of to curb these doings is to escalate tis matter to Head. If things do not turn out better in times to come, i shall bring it up to higher authority to deal wit her. Mdm Tan warned me abt my appraisal as i nid her to complete it for me & to grade my performance too by end o tis mth. I cant let myself to b bullied & i chose to make it known to everyone abt her incompetency (mayb to cover my own ass too).

Uncle Lau commented tt i shld jus take things easy but i cant take it anymore. I hate it wen pple dun practice wad dey say n always demand for impractical actions. I tink i will take 3days 3nites (at least) to jot down wad tis old woman had done to me at wrk. I had come tis far & i cannot afford to let her bring me down & therefore, by hooks or by crooks, i mus clear a path for me to go. And wen i say i wana get it done, i will. I had nv show tis much determination b4 & if i do, whoeva gets in my way shall 'perish'. Afterall, i m a very extreme person. So yea, nv ever step on my tail.

Tt's all for today. I hope dere will b no part 2 or more.

Sickening Monday

Tis mornin i came into offc & i was shocked to get tis email. The content o tt email gave me a lousy start 4 e day. Demise o Kevin's dad. My condolence. Sighz. I felt kinda down thou. Lunch time, we decided to pay a visit @ Kevin's plc & another colleague offered to drive us down to e wake. And it was e start o my grievances for e day.

I went down to e wake wit my Mafia gang (Mena, Nana & Winnie) & Taufik was e driver. It was my first time to see Taufik thou we had attended course together. Since e time i heard abt tis guy, e impression was tt Nana & him were fren since some sec or pri sch days & dey were neighbours too. Okay, tt was fine & cool if he wana send us down to e wake in the position o a colleague. Wen i got into e car, i felt goddamn uneasy. Reason bein, Nana's body language was goddamn wrong! She seated in front & slanted her body to face Taufik & acted like she's e co-owner o e car. Tt led me to tink if she has got smthin gg on btw e both o them. Dey acted like dey r alr a couple & e way dey tok to each other, wen their eyes meet, it gave pple e feel tt dey r reali tgt. In my mind i was tinkin - Aint Nana still wit her bf or mayb she broke off wit her bf for another guy?? Y is she so close wit tis fellow here ?? I m totally lost. Nvm, tt was e first issue. Secondly, e 3 o them had small toks in e car while i was bz on e phone. As proven by few o my ex-employers, i m someone who observes sharply & i jokingly asked if dey got smthin hidin fr me. Den Winnie offended me ONE BIG TIME !!! CCB !! It's REALI ONE BIG TIME !!! Dey spontateously answered NO. Fine. So i kinda probed further - 'Sure or not har?' Den Mena, bein e neutral one always, admitted tt dey met yday n went for Fish-Spa. I was like...no big deal ma... Den it's at tis pt o time Winnie uttered smthin tt pissed me off. She said tt cos dey went out & did not ask me along & therefore dey wana 'kip it a secret'. Oh Pls, if u ask me, i dun fancy gg out wit them. I got very annoyed & hollered - 'It's nt as if i m free for such thing !' Winnie turned & commented wit a very crude tone - 'We went fish spa n let e fish bite. We did not ask u along & we dun intend to tell u more.' WTF ??? Wad's her prob now ???

I kept quiet aft all these co-motions. I was listenin to my mp3 all e way till we arrived at Kevin's plc. Dere, we started another round o silent war. Nana was seated next to Taufik. I saw her placin her hand on Taufik's thigh. Tis action got me even puzzled !! I was like...WTH la !! Dey reali acted like dey r reali attached to each other !!! At tt instance, i was feelin very upset. Upset cos i tink tt i m facin another shitty person in my life agn. Thou i had nv treated her like any other fren o mine but i make it a pt to show care n concern as i tot i can still respect her as my colleague. And it's like seein another immature mly woman, foolin ard wit another man tt may lead to nowhere. Once agn, on our journey back, i kept quiet n listened to my mp3. I chose to leave them alone.

Got back to offc, i complaint to Ridzwan. As i ranted, i was tinkin mayb i m too bz-body but on e otherhand, i dun wish to see tragedy - meanin another dumb woman got cheated (agn). zzzzzzzzz. Someone kill me ok?? Aft all my complaints to Ridzwan, i received an email fr Nana.

Heyy babe...I hope you were not affected by what we have said to you earlier on in the car. We thought you might be busy on saturdays which was why we didnt ask you along coz I noe definitely that you'll have agendas goin on during the weekends. But next time, put some time aside for these 3 lil colleagues of yours for our next outing k? On the other hand, yes...I have broken up with my boyfriend months ago...it has been quite some time..I juz didnt want to tell you all yet. Mena and winnie only knew me and Taufik as close friends and indeed we are. I knew him during our childhood times...one of my neighbours. So yea, I hope it clears your mind...and always remember that we have never haf any ntentions of keeping behind your back k. We're weighing the options based on you too...

I was on e phone wen i read tis email. I was tokin to Uncle Lau, complainin to him abt all these shits. I told him tt i m NOT e one wit problem but these pple!!!! Wen i read tis, i almost tear. Tear cos i felt like an idiot cos i m so dumb to have wasted my energy to tok to them all these while. I wasted my time on them. WHY WHY WHY ?? I felt like a fckin stupid bitch who do nt wise up aft bein 'cheated' by fren ard me. zzzzzzz. I wanted to reply her tis - it was seemingly an attempt to hide cos on last friday, i can see it wit my eyes n sensed wit e body language.
it doesnt matter cos i can differentiate btw facts n acts. it's a thin line afterall.
offended? tt's kinda belittlin to tink i m offended. Since u pple had assumed tt i b bz .. den b it. It's seriously no big deal if u guys planned to meet up w/out me. So yea, no nid to act like it's a masterplan.
as for taufik, it's obviously tt u r into him. dun ask me y but ur actions speak louder than words. no nid to explain cos certain things, it would b better left unexplained. I appreciated tt u take time to clear (my) doubts & thanks for the offer o donuts from Taufik.

Ridzwan adviced me not to do so as it mite sour things btw us. Seriously, i dun understand y these pple can get into another r/s so fast wen i once heard tt e feelings btw e couple back den was so gud & it's like dey wana get engage soon. It's makin me feelin disgusted for sure. Dun ask me y. I m a traditional person wen it comes to such commitment. Okay, i know i m bein call a stupid bitch nw but who cares. Mayb i take it too hard? Or mayb i reali treated them as my fren?

I told myself tt i will ignore them for gud. Der's no pt o me to make myself feelin so miserable. And to add on one more thing - I M SURROUNDED BY ALOT O BITCHES & BASTARDS !!!! Woes to these fckers !!!

I tink i had too much grievances against too many issues. Yday, I was told by my fren tt someone out dere has got problem wit me cam-whorin away last week. It was a series o pic tt i took for myself while waitin to go out. Seriously, pple read another person's blog for entertainment & e blogger blog for e fun out o it. And if tis someone has got problem wit my face, tell me st8 in my face. WHY go ard tellin other pple tt i ACT CUTE ??? waahahahhahahahaha. Mayb I m too cute for some pple to handle & tt's y dey r commentin soooo much. Wen pple ask me 2 get a life, i tink dey nid it more than i do ! Reason bein, I dun do things under e table.

At times i wana b nice to everybody ard me but it always seems tt someone else jus wana spoil e market n make me a nasty bitch all over agn. Well, o cos, i dun change jus bcos someone caused me to but bcos i m always a devil. So yea, pple, rmb tt u dun wake up e animal in me else i BITE. I supposed Ridzwan kinda terrified o me now. hahahaha. Seein how i reacted today in offc. hahaha !

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I duno wad title shld i put for today's posting. zzzzz.

I m feelin blank n empty & all i know is tt i gotta do abit o exercise b4 i go out n mit Constance at city hall aft her wrk today. I wana go shop ard to see if i still nid to get anythin for CNY. And i shldnt stay hme to hear naggings.

Aft CNY, i gona make up my mind on which course to take exactly & if i shld start tis yr or next yr. I mite nid abit o time to save up more cash thou. hahaha !!

I gona wrk harder to earn more money & i shall cut down on my spendings aft tis CNY. (i hope la, promises r foreva meant 2 b broken !!) I nid to pass my freakin probation at my current wrkplc to get promoted !! I m gona give my CBvisor some colors to see if she reali step on my tail fr nw on. Veron commented tt i will leave aft a yr or two. Oh well. I dun wana 'die' in tis kinda ageing plc. God Bless

I told Rod Bro my goal for the next 10yrs & i MUS fulfil it by all means. Ironically, i only plan for my career & nothin else. I guess i gona b on my own fr nw on.

Yday's mini gatherin was gud. Spoke to Alvin & Vincent & we exchanged pointers on everythin. hahahaha. I mite get into some collaboration wit Vincent as he is startin his own coy dealin wit car groomin services. hmmmm. Time to expand my clientele !!! I strived to build my own network as soon as i get my toilet-paper-cert in 2 yrs to come. In e midst o all e conversations, i realised one thing abt myself - I procrastinated way way too much. I always plan but i nv execute. I always tink but nv put my tots into action. Perhaps i shld pump myself harder to get me started. I m gettin older n older. I got no time to waste any longer !!!

Okay, e one who always nag at hme is back. I gona nap den go run & prepare to go out. See u pple tml !!

Moody

i tink i m moody since i woke up. I feel hungry & my body ache like no one biz. Suddenly i tot Mr. Lee.

He called me real late last nite & Dotter was 'scoldin' him all over. zzzzzzz. Hmmmm. But den agn, i cant b bothered. Tis mornin woke up seein an big envelope for me & it was brochures fr RMIT as i requested for it earlier tis week. I read thru the courses details n i m more or less set for e course tt i wana take. Nw, my prob is, do i wana fork out cash to pay off e course fee or shld i take loan? I m kinda reluctant to use e cash on hand nw. zzzzzzzz. I got mixed feelings. I tink i mite go jobless soon as i reali cannot stand my CBvisor alr. Mayb i shld go back to Sales. zzzz.

Ridzwan kip tellin me tt it's rather fine to wrk at wer i m wrkin nw & i shldnt leave cos o tis fckin haggard. zzzzzzzz. The thing is, i feel tt she will FAIL MY APPRAISALS lo !!!!!! She got an evil heart. I always look upon her as someone who is very 'black-hearted'. zzzzzzz. Someone kill me. I dun wana resign. Once a guy told me fr my palm-readin tt i will always b in-out o jobs till i hit 35yrs old ! And i wana go against tis & tis cnt b true! zzzzz. I m feelin e pressure nw. Damn. Y do i have to wrk wit freakin female supervisor wen i always clashes wit those bitches. Mayb God is testin me. oh screw it. If i reali cant pass my probation n stuffs, I tink i will reali drag tis old haggard into toilet & wallop her. LOLz. Den my colleagues would deems as a heroine while i got jailed! hahahaha. God Bless. So i better make sure tt i pass my probation & get increments & promotion !!!!!!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

I m feelin real hungry nw & i m lazy to go find food. I m still tinkin if i wana go Constance's bb's bday party. hahahaha. I m lazy to drive & i dun wana drive. If i m lazy to drive, i dun tink i wana take public transport too. kekeke. Okay, i know all these r excuses. I gona nap n take bus dere since M & i had alr brought smthin for Jovial alr. heeeeez. =)

Met Kinky Boi yday too. I m worried tt he will bcome a slacker. I f him yday & i got kinda harsh too. sighz. I dun wana see him bcomin like a useless ass in tis society. I hope tt he will wake up his idea.

Thurs evenin, b4 i went for badminton, I received a call fr someone tt i had nv ever expected to call aft mths. hahahaha. I was shocked & i tink smthin bad mus b gg on & therefore i got her call. zzzzzzz. WTF.

TGIF !!!

Thank God It's Friday !!!!!

My fave day for a week o hard work n stuffs !! hahahahaha !!

I b mtg my Lil' M ltr! Hopefully she wnt b late !! I cant wait to see her cos it's been abt 2mths since i last met her. keke. I supposed we nid to shop for Constance's bb's gift. Hmmmm. Till now i still cant tink o wad to buy. Ideas, anyone ??? hur hur hur hur. Like wad Uncle Lau said, givin ang bao may nt b so nice & moreover i m nt married yet. hahahaha !!

Tis mornin was kinda annoyin at wrk. My step-mum-at-wrk got cranky n shouted at me. Muthafcker !!! She got angry wen i was tokin to Amin. It's like i m usin my same level o noise to tok n tis time rd, she shouted. But wen she shouted, i din give a damn n continued to tok. HAHAHAHA. I tink i got on her nerves further. hahaha. Ridzwan gave me an absurd look wen she snapped at me. One fact proven: She's a old woman wit poor personal hygiene. Okay, i know u pple mus b sayin tt in times to come i mite b lidat but !!!!!!!!! she reali got very serious problem on tis ~!! Her breathe shld b able to kill any flyin insect if it do happen to fly past wen she open up her blardy mouth n tok. zzzzzz. Her body odour !!!! TOP GRADE ONE HOR. Sorry la, i know i m evil here but i reali had enuf o tis blardy siao cha bor & it's like e tot o her bein condemned by every single officers here at my wrkplc kinda got me even agitated.

Last nite Uncle Lau called aft i F him on MSN. hahahahhaa. I tink so far, apart fr Mr. Lee, he's one o those who can tahan my nonsenses. hahahaha. Or mayb he choose to filter off all my crapz? hahahaha. Wadeva it is, i appreciate his patience towards me. hahahahaha.

My badminton game was gud yday. It's nice to sweat it all out !! hahahahaa. Lucky tt i dun get bodyache today. I tink i can resume my exercise regime since my body can take long hours o physical activities ! hahahahaha.

I cant wait to go hme !!! I shall continue my blog ltr. Bye for now.

After Course Effect

Seriously, i appreciated my time wen i was on course as i know tt i can leave my wrk back in offc. zzzz. Course's over n i m back in offc, strugglin wit audits n stuffs. NB.

She's a bitch for sure. But i feelin much evil than she do.

I m gona have a badminton game aft wrk today.

God Bless.

Strategic Export

My course is goddamn dry & it's kinda killin me. Thank god tt i got 'kakis' to hang ard wit durin break time or else i mite jus skip class n find one corner to hide. zzzzz. But overall, i tink tt e course is pretty okay & i still managed to absorb some pointers. Jus tt wen e speakers tok too much on e theories, i can die down dere lo. zzzz.

I saw e new uniform tt we gona b wearin on certain occassion. It dun look nice, well i mean...e pockets tt i gona wear in front o my boobs will make it look even bigger & i m someone who cant wear uniform one lo!! n i reckon tt i m nt gona use it to put my pocket book.............. Anyway, i m nt required to wear it evryday. So yea, who cares.

Pang & I din tok today but somehow, i do tink tt he got some sort o likings on me. zzzzzzz. I shall nt tok abt it as my brain is kinda dead aft a full day course. Rod Bro said i cannot act cute anymore !!!! He said mus b durin last week's team buildin, i act cute too much alr den give pple wrong impression. NB lo. It's like y only him got wrong impression ??!?!?! Cos he single too long & wana get hitch rite !!! TMD. Nonsense laaaaa. I tink sooner or later i wana b a lesbian lo. I mite b happier tt way? hahahahahahahaha.

I m tired. Eyes cant open too. I m feelin giddy & my migraine is killin me too. I need a rest. Tis weekends gona burn agn. Constance's bb's bday party & sunday mite b mtg CML or another fellow.

One more week to CNY. Sigh. Uncles & Aunties .... PLS DUN ASK wen i gona get married cos i aint gona do so. So yea, ur niece here is gona b single for gud. God Bless.

Gud nite pple. I gona have my dinner n hit e sack. 2 more days b4 weekends n i m pressured for tis mth KPI. sighz. I stil tink i m underpaid.

I tink I hates men ! hahahaha.

hmmmmm.. I stepped into offc early agn ! And i was greeted by Ah-Pang but tt oso marked my aggression towards him !! zzzzzzzzzzzzz..

I kinda ranted at him today for always tryin to get my attention. It's like i got into offc, seein some o my colleagues lookin kinda rundown as dey stayed overnite jus to finish off some impt case & Ah-Pang was commentin : "Weiling, hahahahha, Amin not in & no one wil b ard to tease u ...." I got annoyed as i was tinkin tt i dun nid him to tell me tt. It's nt as if i cant take jokes or smthin. Nvm, tt triggered everythin off. zzzzzzzz. "Weiling, U seems to b a changed person!?!?!" Jus bcos i dun wana respond to everythin tt he said. FINE !! "Weiling, i made u angry ah ?? Y u like dun wana tok to me lidat har? R u in a lousy mood ???" I wana kill myself loooooooorrrrr......NB !! Aft awhile, he came into my cubicle n took some tidbits to munch...& he said : "haha, Weiling, haha, early mornin i come into ur cubicle to take ur things n eat. haha. tok lei. y dun wana tok ah ??" NB!! Isnt it obvious tt i DUN WANA TOK TO U ??? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. I got reali pissed & i raised my voice : "SSSSSHHHH. Pang !! I DUN feel like tokin !" Pang : "okok.. sori..sori..I dun tok to u alr..." TMD .. He went back to his seat (which was diagonally opposite o me) n continue sayin SORRY .. Wa biang eh !! At tt instance, i do wana give him a tite slap.... Okay, i m as violent as b4... And b4 i left for my class, he asked if i had shopped for CNY & wad had i brought so far.. I was like .. WTF lo !! My Mum DUN EVEN ask me tt.. Wad has it got to do wit him ?!?!?! Kill me laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

Durin my class, i told Mdm Ang abt it & she told me tt he's always soooo naggy.. I duno if i gave him wrong impression tt i was tryin to b close to him but somehow, it seems tt he diverted his attn to me in offc lo !!!! Oh pls ! I DUN appreciate such attn...especially at wrk ~!!! NB... I told Ridzwan & he laffed his ass off, addin on tt Pang may like me cos we both single n available. Wa lau!!!! I tink gg out wit him, pple may deem me as his elder sister lo. It's like i m taller than him & seriously, i dun like older men alr laaaaa....Hur hur hur... Wad got me even more surprised was Mdm Ang told me he got 3 curry puffs tis mornin, one for himself & he gave one to her & most prob e last one was meant for me. Since i snapped at him, he did nt give it to me. Goodness, Y isit tt i always got such encounter ?? Mayb i shldnt b so friendly to anyone. zzzz.

At time i wonder y i got gud attn fr guys tt i dun fancy. Uncle Lau said mayb Pang likes FAT PPLE LIKE ME & tt's y he been wantin to b funny wit me. zzzzzzz. M i tt fat ?? Although i put on...like 10kgs for the past 3yrs but STILL NT TT JIALAT LEI !!! NB. Shit lo. Uncle Lau, i tink u damn itchy alr. I wil get u a bottle o dettol to wash up. U wait ok? I tink i better avoid Pang for e next few days & i m hopin tt he could jus leave me alone or else it will b awkward wrkin wit him.

Sighz. y so suay..........always got such incidents happenin to me. I tot i jus got rid o one fellow...nw come another funny character at wrk... y lidat ........

I went for my haircut yday evenin & my hairdresser & i exchanged conversations & ironically we touched on our private (love) life. I told her tt i m single for gud & it's tirin to b attached. She agreed. Somehow, we got e same characters - we both too strong for some men to accept. We r under those category whereby we often wana lead & nt wantin to let go o e 'power' to lead & tt mite scare off some (eligible) men. I realised, Mr. Lee once commented tt i m always e dominant one & he always try to let me win in order nt to clash wit me. zzzz. Okay, let me repeat myself agn. I m who i m for tis is wad men 'trained' me to b cos men(in my life, so far) r 'incompetent' in many ways. I shall nt elaborate further & I m happy to b a strong woman o my style.

Nice Monday

I aint sufferin fr any Monday Blues & i m grateful tt my prayers wrk but i m kipin my fingers cross tt things will b runnin smoothin till e time i step outta offc ltr. I b gg off earlier today as i wana get my hair cut. zzzz. My fringe is too long for me to look young !!!! hahahahaha !! I mite wana get my hair colour touch up abit too.

Okay, I m dozin off anytime. zzzz. Happy Lunchin Pple !!!

Shoppin Sunday

I went City Hall for shoppin today as i wana get some dresses for wrk, or mayb CNY. I spent hundreds agn. zzzz. At e rate tt i m spendin my cash, i mite go bankrupt soon lei. I was happily swipin my credit card today & it seems tt i m usin much o my future cash. God Bless. Time to terminate it !!! I tink it's still better to use cash in SG.............................

Cam-Whoring while waitin for Rod Bro to get ready to mit me. He took freakin long time to prepare himself. I got annoyed lo !!!!!!

Lazy Saturday

Me & Ridzwan aft e de-brief o treasure-hunt. He pushed me into e pool !!!

I got pushed into e pool. Can see me ?? I heard laughters fr everywhere wen i got into e pool. Damn.

My Team !! In search o e 'haunted' BBQ pit!! Located in e 'heart' o Hawaii !!

The 3 musketeers !! My Dy Head, Ah-Pang & Uncle Edmund !!

Tis sickenin fruit tt Ah-Pang was holdin on, got us very very exhausted !!

Pey Chee & me b4 e start o Treasure-Hunt.

My Team !! Wit me as Team Leader. hahahaha. Yellow, Yellow, Dirty Fellow !!! hahahahhaa.

Briefin session 1

Briefin Session 2. Mr Soo. (in green) always crackin jokes wit us in offc.

Ice-Breaker : Trust ur surroundin & ur team !!! Amin, U can do it !!! We r here to catch u wen u fall !!!
Mei Ying & Pey Chee, few o my '3-8's in offc. hahaha. Actin cute lo !!

Tis look better thou !! hahahaha. U gals rock ! Let's b high on rootbeer agn !!!

I woke up early for wrk tis mornin or rather, i did not managed to slp well last nite. hahaha. My brain was too active thru-out e nite & I cant seems to feel tired thou my body alr protested tt i shld take a rest !! zzzzzzzzzzz.

I arrived at offc b4 8am & most o them were later than 8am as most o them seems lethargic. But thank god tt i stayed in offc today to help clear some paperwork as rest o them were out for supervision. hahaha. I spent whole 4hrs to clear all e shits, doin things tt i nv did it b4. I got stressed. Mdm Tan was sayin tt it's NOT easy doin their wrk in their section. I almost fainted. God Bless. Anyway, i managed to clear e paper war tis mornin till Velaa & Ridzwan come back fr field work. zzzzzzzz. And ironically, i became Velaa's BABY !! hahahaha. He stepped into offc & he SHOUTED : " Wad's up BABY? U doin gud dere ?" I died. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. hahahahaahaha !!! Uncle Velaa called me BABY !! NB. Like callin his pet lidat lo !!! zzzzz.. And tt reminded me o BMW. Okay. Sorry. I know no link !! kekekekeke.

Jus now bro asked if Mum's experiencing menopause. I ans : "o cos la ! Everybody oso tio fr her. NB. " My bro got kinda shocked, i guess! hahahahaha. I almost wanted to tell him - Mdm Ang menopause, me depression ah!!!! zzzzzzz. I tink i m cranky now. zzzzzzz. Rod bro got abit scared cos i was rantin away over e phone earlier. zzzzzzzzzz. I f him for bein silly too as he always got used by some sickenin women out dere. Fck. Y he so dumb ??????? zzzzzz... Or mayb, y those women so clever ?? LOLz. NO name mention here, so dun get sensitive okay ??? LOLz.

I m tired alr. I wana go shower n slp agn.. And i m tempted to get new handset agn. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Fun Fun Friday !!!

I had my branch team buildin at Aloha Loyang & it was so goddamn fun !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And it's only today, i get to know my colleagues better !!! I m pretty surprised tt some o my colleagues r actually so fun-lovin & sporting !!! Some o them appeared to b quiet & low-profile in offc & today is an eye-opener to see another side o them ! hahahahaha .. Nice one !! I hope tt i can stay for many many o such team buildin event !!!

I got sabo by Ridzwan as he caught me unaware, pushin me into e swimmin pool while tryin to locate some transparent glass thingy in e pool. I swam ard for abt 5mins n i still cant find it. I got abit upset wit myself. zzzzz. I reali enjoyed myself today. It's like runnin ard to get my treasure hunt game done asap while i cheer my team along to move forward cos i was e team leader & we got 1st runner up prize!!!! kekekeke. I shouted here n dere to take control o certain situations. I cheer as n wen it was needed along wit other '3-8's o mine. It was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cool & some o e men commented tt even w/out e alcohol presence, we got 'high' too. hahahahahahahahaha.

At abt 8plus, we had our lucky draw & Ridzwan won e top prize o $250 cash!! hahahaha. It was nice seein everybody cheerin away & joinin in e fun. It's been awhile since i last seen tis kinda spirit among co-workers. hahaha. Gud one.

Mr. Lim was wantin to mit me aft my event but apparently he sms me aft awhile claimin tt he wana mit his fren for dinner n shall mit me other day wen b4hand he called n said tt he will pick me up fr e chalet. zzzzzzzz. I was been put plane. Nvm. But he reminded me o Mr. Lee once agn. Okay, i shall nt share those incidents agn but i guess i will call it an end to all these. I guess i m better off on my own yea. I mean i shall nt b disturbed by all these funny thoughts.

Thanks to all my branch colleagues for all e fun we had @ e chalet & efforts to make it successful !!! I appreciated everythin.

*photos b uploaded soon.

It's Lunch time !!

I jus had my lunch wit Mdm Ang (my wrkin partner) @ Level 2. I m feelin hungry very very easily recently & i believed tt i m puttin on weight agn !!! My Mdm Ang at hme was suggestin tt i can go get some slimmin pills to drop some weight first b4 i start my exercise regime. zzzz. I wonder if i have e time to do so. My stomach is now havin mini hurricane due to excessively chillipadi !!! Darn it !!!

Last nite i couldnt slp agn. I managed to doze off only at abt 11pm wen i was alr on my bed since 9pm. LOLz. Tis mornin i almost couldnt wake up on time agn. zzzzz. Tis mornin i got into offc, I surfed net for awhile, in e hope o findin some course tt i can take ltr tis yr. Den i realised tt e course i was so goddamn interested in will only commence next yr Jan. NB!! Tt means by e time i finish off e course, i m OLD. GODDAMN FREAKIN OLD !!!! Holy SHIT !!!!! Bro said it mite b worthwhile waitin for if i dun wish to get into another course wit its duration o 4yrs OR i can look ard for other courses in other institute. Now den i understand tis statement - "Woman's youth is limited." Darn it!! But on the otherhand, i aint wantin to settle down or smthin, so i can take my own sweet time buildin my own world. LOLz. No fret !!! hahahahahahahaa. Sighz. Nothin give me security. So do or die. Hmmmmm.. Mayb i could have more time to save up more cash for next yr. Sighz. I tink i will take up part-time job to kill time. It's like i planned tt fr July on, I b doin tis n tt for my studies & now it has got to b postponed. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Mayb i can find a bf to kill time? LOLz. Or shld i jus look ard for other courses?? Roslan was kinda disappointed wen i told him tt i cant start tis yr July for my studies.

Tml i'll b havin my team buildin event wit my branch !!! Gettin excited !!! I wonder how i b sabo by my colleagues. wahahahahahahahaha. Hmmmm. And perhaps aft e team buildin, i mite b mtg him. As in HIM !!!! hahahahahaaha. Cant wait, CANT WAIT LOR !! kekekekee. Mayb he will get e shock o his life cos i m gettin fatter.................................... hur hur hur.

I was readin tis blog - http://www.rockson.blogspot.com/
Tis fellow, hahahha, i tink he possessed gud sense o humour wit a lil stint o ah-beng attitude. wahahahaha. And the best part is, he reminds me o my Mr. Lee. I tink dey both got essence o each other. LOLz. Damn funny la !!!

I miss Uncle Lau.

Mid-week Crisis

I tink i m havin depression soon. Damn!! I tried to read some data since tis mornin wit tis report & I m gettin nowhere. NB. My eyes r tired & I wana slp !!! WHY m i been arrowed to do reports ??!?!?!! why Why wHy whY WHy WHY !!!! Someone tell me WHY !!! Nt tt i duno how to put up a report but IT'S TIRIN LO !! Den i got colleagues who duno their work at all !!! I went over to her desk to ask her abt her case, she gave me a blank look & uttered nonsense WHICH IS GETTIN NOWHERE. Kill me pls. zzzzz. I m mixin up all the stats & I tink i will submit wrong figures to boss for sure !! zzzzzz. God Bless. I m seein stars soon.

I KO aft i blogged last nite till 10plus. Woke up for awhile to shut down my lappie & back on my bed till tis mornin for wrk. zzzz. I couldnt wake up tis mornin as my head was heavy. Damn. I shld have taken MC to rest at hme today. My headache refuses to go away fr me. I miss my piggy at hme. Okay, tt was random, i know!!

It's lunch time & i m still in front o my pc. Pang jus asked if i wana go lunch. Mena & Nana din come find me. I supposed dey r rottin in their offc too. zzzzz. My stupid monitor screen is flickerin away & tt cause my headache to get worst.

Mr. Lee called me tis mornin faithfully. He said he was bz yday as he went for prayers till late. I asked wen he wana b a monk & he disturbed me by sayin tt i refuses to marry him & therefore he can go become a monk. Fck u understand ???? Dun shift all e responsibilities onto me. U wnt give up a forest jus bcos o a tree, i mean a fat & ugly tree. zzzzzz.

I miss him. Y din he contact me for e past few days since sunday???? Wer is he ??!?!?!!

Busy Tuesday

I m freakin bz today lo !!!! I had branch mtg fr 9am till 12.40pm.... I almost dropped dead.... My lunch hour was cut short as I nid to b out for company visit at 2.30pm & Roslan was late !!!!!! Told him tt we were supposed to mit at 2pm at pick-up point but he took his own sweet time !!! zzzzzz... We were late for e appointment but my traders were even later than us ! hahahaha.. hengz ah !! kekekeke... Got back offc at abt 4pm & I was so goddamn listless... I couldnt even open my eyes ! At 5.30pm sharp, i dashed outta offc for hme!! zzzzzz .. Wad a tirin day ... sighz .. I m due for few reports & tis mth's KPI. Someone kill me. Y m i so bz nowadays !!! Audits, reports, Outreach sessions to my traders & other miscellaneous stuffs. zzzzzzzz. I tink i m underpaid agn. Keke. NoNo. I shld say I m lucky to b able to stay in a job nw !!

Mornin's mtg was a bored one. Big Boss asked if we wana add on new issues for FY09 workplan & it seems like he had alr finalised e workplan & wad's e pt o askin for our opinions ?!?! zzzzz .. I tink he is goddamn ambitious as he 'requested' (or mayb i shld say DEMANDED??) one o e team to 'crack BIG cases' wen most o our traders have been complyin wit e rules n regulations for many yrs ... zzzzz .. Seriously, today is a tedious day for me ... I can barely open my eyes nw too but I jus blog tis entry n hit e sack ! hahahaha ..

Mr. Lee called me tis mornin b4 my mtg & he was tellin me tt he went Mlysia yday to collect back his car cos his customer had passed away.. zzzz .. Why do u haf to tell me such thing?? U dun haf to report strength to me wad ?! zzzz .. I m jus wonderin y each time he call me, he would sound so happy.. Mr. Lee, u got problem izit ??

Shan Dotter is still down wit fever & she randomly commented tt she wana pass tis virus to her daddy which is Mr. Lee. I almost fainted. And i told her tt i was pissed wit Mr. Lee yday... Dotter : Y u pissed off wit him?? Me : U go read my blog lo. Dotter : Oh. Dotter : But den agn since wen u r not pissed wit him?? Me : oh ya hor .. =P WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. Tt's so goddamn true. I m pissed wit my Mr. Lee almost evry other day.. sighz .. Wld dere b such a time tt he can stop pissin me off & I can stay neutral ??? Oh well .... But i still lup him for who he is even though he pisses me off every now n den. keke.

Hahahahaa .. Guess wad, I m havin a lil crush on someone nw. Someone tt i had nv tot to contact wit aft yrs. Someone whom i tot will b outta my life yrs ago. Someone whom i tink tt i will wana stay long wit. Hahahahahahaha. I hope to see him soon, REAL SOON !! I miss u sooooo. I guess u wont know who u r unless i told u so. It's my lil dark secret. =P

Tis sat gona b Irene's bday & most prob dere will b gatherin on tt day. My weekends kinda burn away agn. Hmmm. I needa shop for my CNY clothings!! Anyone to acc me ??? hahahahaha .. I wana my usual dose o shoppin spree !!

Super Monday Blues

Damn !!! I got cranky in e mornin !!! I kinda raised my voice upon hearing some comments tt i dun wished to !!!

I was askin Ridzwan wad time will our team buildin event ends tis fri as I wana plan to mit Mr. Lim aft tt & wad he uttered got me SUPER PISSED !! "It will nv end for u cos U R STAYIN AT CHALET !" I flared up. I had alr made my stand firmly tt I WILL NT STAY OVERNITE moreover i gotta go back offc on sat mornin & I countered back sayin tt i SHALL REPORT SICK if i m 'forced' to stay at e chalet. zzzzzzzzz. *faintz* I got very very very agitated for sure. zzzzzzzzz. And to add on to my aggression, Mr. Lee called wen i was havin my mornin teabreak. He told me tt he jus came back to SG as he was away in Genting over e weekends & tt's y i did not hear fr him... zzzzzz .. doesnt reali matter lo !! But at tt instance, i felt tt he's kinda irresponsible. I mean, if he do tis to his gf? Tt aft he come back fr his trip den inform o his absence?? I hope not. I will definitely hate it if i m e last to know. I asked if he drove up to genting & he scolded me an idiot. "Obviously i drive rite ?! If not i walk dere ah !!" NB .. U can choose to take coach up rite?!?!?! Got car very big ah ???? Damn u ok !! Okay, THANK GOD tt he's nt my bf !!!

Yday i was on MSN wit alex for alil while. Part o e conversation was so goddamn funny !!! He said he seen an ah beng jus drove past wit his ah beng car, blastin HOKKIEN SONGS away... And he asked if tis kinda guy is my type !!!!???!!! I was like WTF !!!! HOKKIEN AH BENG ??!?!!? NB lo !!! Ah Beng ?? zzzzz ?? HOKKIEN AH BENG ?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!? SHIT LA !!! Okay, i m abit worked up ..... COS I NV LIKED AH BENG who dun speak well & bring themselves well... Reason being, i met 'ah bengs' who speak well & dey r charismistic..........Or mayb i shldnt classify those men as ah beng but somehow, their appearence deem like one ! LOL !!! I tink i m gettin nowhere now .. hahahahahhahahaa...

Tis mornin was kinda bz for me at wrk. My sup asked me on my old cases & i do feel like cryin. It's like i was bring down like a stupid idiot who do not know her job well, someone who is incompetent while I seriously take pride in my job !!!!! Oh screw it ....

Counting down to 5.30pm !!! *tick-tock.... tick-tock....tick-tock.....*

Weekend - Sunday

I wake up early today agn. Had my usual Nasi Lemak for breakfast. Bro get me along to buy gifts for his gf's & twin sis's bday.

We arrived at Orhard area at 11plus am & we shopped at all e major departmental stores. It seems tt my shoppin spree is back all over agn. I was supposed to acc bro to get presents BUT ended up i got myself 2 new bottles o perfume & 1 new keys pouch. zzzzz. I spent hundreds agn.

Had lunch at Ajisen & i got stomach upset shortly aftwhich. zzzzzz. Bro brought a new pillow - Tempur. *faintz* It cost him $200+++. He asked if i wana get one too & I gave him a disgusted look. He commented : "NVM HOR, u still young.... wen u reach my age, u will appreciate such a GUD pillow for sure..." Okay, I got reminded tt i m gettin old too. Sighz....

Got back hme at 4plus & we were surprised tt Mdm Ang wasnt hme. Randomly, bro suggested tt we shall go joggin... zzzzzzzzzzz.. I followsuit. I got breathless aft 5mins. zzzzzzz. And i stopped joggin aft 15mins. zzzzzzz. I got no stamina alr !!!! I wasnt lidat 3yrs ago !!! hahahahaa. Duh !! 3yrs ago i was in my early twenties & now ..... MID TWENTIES !!!! Damn !!!! Tis CNY may get disastrous................................... *shrugs*

Okay, I gona rest. I anticipated tt i b havin bodyache tml !!! God Bless & Loves.

Spring Cleaning in progress !!

Waaaaaa .. I had cleared abt 7 big bags o trash fr my room n it was inclusive o my handbags, clothings, shoes, paper bags fr my shoppings & some books/papers/notes (wadeva u can call it to b)... zzzzzz.. It is tedious for sure. Dust everywhere in my room n my vacuum cleaner gotta wrk real hard tis time rd !! hahahahahahhaa. I spent a holly holy 5hrs clearin all these n dere's still more to go...

In e midst o clearin all these thrash, i found NEO-PRINTS !!!! Pics o me n fren wen i was in my teens !!!!! DAMN !!! I looked kinda nerd !!! zzzzzzzz .. I was very very much slimmer back den & comin to tink abt it, i reali put on abt comin 20kgs lo .................... I guess u pple mus b tinkin how heavy was I back den .. Okay, my resolution is to kip fit n lose weight (mayb aft CNY tis yr la.. )... kekekekeke... And i do recall tt i was more than 10kgs lighter wen i was abt to graduate fr my Poly studies den.. *LOLz* Say HI to my FATS !!

I nid to get lotsa new things for my room n top in my list will b a new bed frame !!! My current bed frame was pass down to me fr Mdm Ang wen we shifted into tis hse 10yrs ago (damn .. i m gettin old !!!!) & way b4 tt, she was alr usin it for quite a num o yrs... Now tt i put on another 20kgs, e bed frame cld nt hold on to my weight anymore !! hahahahaahhaa..

Okay, i gotta prepare to go out n mit Rod bro soon. Cheers pple !! N have a gud weekend ahead !!!

Gud Times. Bad Times.

Today aint a gud start for e year. I got 'screwed' by my step-mum-at-wrk at wrk. Trust me, at times i do feel like draggin her into any o e toilet cubicle. She's reali a pain in e neck - empty vessels makin alot o noise ! Kia Si till very jialat. Okay, i know i m very very very very evil for sayin so but I reali cant wrk wit old woman for sure !! Call me a bitch den... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.. I jus wana get tis off my chest.

Tis mornin i got into offc b4 8am as i had changed my reportin time. She was late, as usual. The weather aint gud as she strolled into offc wit her black charcoal face. After my mornin teabreak, she asked abt my last yr sept case & wanted me to verify every single details. First thing tt came into my mind was - 'She gona return me e file & i gona re-open e case n wrk on it agn, buggin my traders for more information tt will drive them n myself crazy'. I pitied my traders n myself fr e bottom o my heart. I know tt every single call to any o my traders, dey will get one blood vessel burst for sure. It's like i randomly had my mini lucky-draw to pick coy to conduct these audits n at e end o e day, i m kinda posin inconvenience to them. Okay, i m paid to do dirty job, rmb ?? But den agn, it still boils down to e fact tt my step-mum-at-wrk KS, everythin oso cannot, mus b lytis or lidat to her standard. Oh fck it. I m tryin my best to kip my cool. One fine day I mite flare up. I m tired o my wrk (soon)..

Lunch time, Nana & Mena wanted to stay in & so I made my way down to get food as i was real hungry wen e clock hit 12nn. On my way down, Nana said dey b waitin for me at level 1. zzzzz. Met them, did our usual 'lunch shoppin' & i over-buy agn. zzzzz. I cant eat much recently. Went up to Nana & Mena's offc to slack till lunch hour over. I was tellin them abt my step-mum-at wrk & wanted to bitch abt her here & Mena shouted tt i got no life. It's nt tt i got no life but no words can describe my 'hatred' for her & therefore i chose to 'pen' it down. Sigh. I felt stupid at times thou or mayb my IQ is reali less than 50. zzzzzz. Okay, someone kill me.

That was all for my time in offc today. Got back hme at 6pm as i was too tired to go mit fren. Spoke to Mdm Ang for awhile b4 i slack on my sofa. Mdm Ang saw me wit my Waffles Crisp & she commented : "Dun eat so much hor, wait heaty laaaaa. Weather aint been gud..." I continued munchin away on my sofa. After awhile, bro called her, informin tt he b hme soon. I was surprised by tt call & tt was abt 6.15pm. Mdm Ang waited till abt 7.30pm & bro aint back hme. She got pissed & F me cos o it. Frankly, who can stand her cranky-ness?? Who is able to take her nonsense n whinings? No one. Seriously, NO ONE !!! While walkin outta hse gate, she was makin crude remarks - 'Bring up you all since young & tis is wad i get back !!' Wad's her problem now ?? She got problem wit us gg out ? Oh pls !! Wen we were much younger, din u go dancin till late nite, leavin us at hme ?? Nid me to refresh ya memory? Screw it. For all e things I had done, i dun deserve scoldings fr u wen i DID NOT commit any wrong at tt pt o time.

A Brand New Year

It's 2009 finally !!! woooooooooooooot !!

I slept my nite thru wen lotsa my fren out havin party n countdown. hahaha !! But i couldnt slp well. I got lotsa phone calls n sms-es comin in thru out e nite n tt was kinda disturbin. Nt tt i dun appreciate the well wishings fr all my fren ( as a matter o fact, I DO APPRECIATE tt cos i know tt dey still rmb me !!!) but some sms-es n calls kinda got me feelin uneasy... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.. *i dun wana get cranky or smthin early in e mornin...*

Yday aft wrk, I went on to bugis to mit my Dotter & Kinky Boi. We had lunch n window shoppin ard e malls. I wanted to get a pen for someone but apparently i cant find any o it tt i like. Perhaps i had enuf o shoppin at BKK. hahahahaha!! We met Mel too. She kinda got bigger aft so long since i last seen her. Okay, i m nt tryin to b evil cos i got bigger too !!!!!! sighz... I m jus so lazy to hit e track n get my body in shape agn....... Someone to motivate me??? hahahahaa.

Saw Mel's other half & we all chatted for awhile b4 we went separate directions. Frankly, one part o our conversation got abit heated up n i was reminded tt i dun treat a human being like a human being. sighz. Well, i do promised to treat him better & to respect him too. I aint gona mention name but yea, i guess we all shld know. My apologies all e shits.