When Hibernation Kick in ...

As I had told Binz tt I been very lost recently, I seems to have no sense o direction and is gg aimlessly. I m lost o for words in most situations and I m completely unaware o wad shits m i gettin myself into. Wrk isnt gettin better neither studies nor my health. I do not know how long I can still push myself. I have been tellin myself tt I shld concentrate on smthin better bt it seems tt smthin else get e best o me. While I try to compensate myself for such dumb action taken, I realised another downfall in my life. At tis pt in time, nothin can b used to describe e emptiness in me. I m 'dead' for good. 


Back fr a surgery, I understand, finally understood, how fragile life can b. Going under e knife, aft 10yrs, at e mercy o those surgeons, knocked me out o my daze tt I shld treasure everythin in life even more. From nw on, I shall do e best in everythin I gotta do. Even if it is at e expense o my life.


Wish me speedy recovery ! =)


I refused to pick up ur calls today cos I tot o e hell lots o things I m doin at tis pt in time. I sms u last nite askin if u were bz cos I was worried if anythin happened to u as it wasnt ur style not to call for at least once a day. Bt somehow, ur reply to me only tis aftn kinda proven tt smthin went wrong somewhere somewhat. Anyway, tis is no longer e main pt... Mayb I was dumb enuf to worry for u cos u r actually able take gud care o urself. U r old enuf to weigh e pros n cons & I no longer wana put in any efforts in tokin terms w u.. Take care..

Taking Back my Love..

Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt?

You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love

Yeah, what did I do but give love to you?
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you

You think that you know
(I do)
You've made yourself cold
(Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl

You're out of control
(So what?)
How could you let go?
(Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material?

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

So all this love I give you, take it away
(Uh, uh huh)
You think material's the reason I came
(Uh, uh huh)

If I had nothing would you want me to stay
(Uh, uh huh)
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

Ooh, my love
(I'm taking back my love)
Ooh, my love
 

*Enrique Iglesias Feat. Ciara 

Friday Nite ...

Weekends r here finally bt I b havin class tml evenin. Will b mtg my guys for some discussion b4 wrk can b delegated. I hope tt everythin will go on fine n no one will 'kill' anyone off in e process. hahahahahaha !!

Clocked my 5th MC for tis yr & I m prayin hard tt my body can pull me thru this intensive module till early June at least. I will b seein my surgeon tis comin tues to decide if surgery nid to b done. Gg under e knife aft so many yrs can b rather overwhelmin. Back den I told myself tt I will b fine aft tt bt somehow e vicious cycle jus go on n on in my life .. Mayb God is tellin me to concentrate on better things instead o worryin much abt it ..

Rite nw, I m more worried abt my results than anything else .. I m still stuck w e decision for my specialisation wen I m always takin other factors into consideration .. Perhaps it's time to screw everything else n jus b more objectives w my goal. =)

Okay, yday tt XDD called me agn. I got reminded o wadeva shits tt he had been tellin me for e past one yr. It's reali sickenin to have lil boys callin me up once every few days n utter nonsense to me !! See, tis is e kinda 'men' ard me - either still on 'breast-feedin' boys or manbitch !! Auntie Ang n whoever been askin y m I single, kindly understand my plight ! =X But do expect tt I b gettin married latest by 35yrs old cos my dearest Mr. Robin Tan shall b my future groom .. WAHAHAHAHHAHHHAA .. hmmmmm .. Our ever-silly-pact tt may nt come true !! =P

While I m troubled by my everlastin results, I m fed up w wrk cos o e eternal need o report writings wen I freakin dun understand a single bit o my wrk alr !! I duno y bt I have lost touch o my wrk. It's like I used to guide my team on their wrk n rite nw I have to ask them bk wadever I had taught them !! hahahahahaha ! I supposed tt it's a big big indication tt I gotta change job nw !!

Tis mornin as I headed out for wrk, I tot I saw my Mr. Badminton !! I din realised tt my neighbour actually look like him until today wen I was nice enuf to wait for him in e lift cos I heard his rushin footsteps ! hehehe .. Wen he entered e lift, I was stunned n froze for a sec or two. Same build, same ht, wear specs too & same skin tone loh !! Blardy hell !! Early morn I tot I seein doubles !! hahahaha !! Sms Azeanti Jie Jie n she said tt mayb I missed him n therefore I was havin such a big reaction ! hahahahahahahaha .. Mayb ? Perhaps ? Bt Jie Jie, u backside itchy alr la !! I miss u thou .. =P

I gona call it a nite as I b havin a long long day tml ! Have a gud weekend ahead pple !

***Dear Mr. Lee, my question posted to u earlier tis evenin via sms was a random one .. The tot jus strike me aft we ended our call ...****

Went for movies last week n one o e day, I met my long-lost sista !! Wen I saw her walkin past me, I hesitated, duno if I shld approach her or not bt somehow, subconsciously, I missed her n therefore I ran aft her.

Shoutin out her name, she turned n hugged me tightly in public ! At tt pt in time, I felt so blessed to have her ... It's like we met each other wen we were only 17 & we bcame gud sistas till we were 19 bt somehow, our happiness were shortlived. We lost contact for abt 6yrs n nw, we r in contact all over agn ! She's married w 2 gals n she was sweet enuf to email me w her recent family pics !! I m happy for her new life !

While lookin at these pics, some pple actually asked y m I still single wen pple ard me r married n has got kids alr ! hahahahaha !! Seriously, tt dun post as an issue to me cos I been so preoccupied w so many things rite nw .. Den Auntie Ang asked y izit tt I m still single n I told her tt men ard me r too 'manbitch' for me.. hahahaha !! Auntie Ang got annoyed n said 'NOT ALL MEN R LIDAT LAH !!' wahahahahahahahhaa !!

Come to tink abt it, I tink I havin higher standards on guys nw .. hahahahha ! Bt wadeva it is, I like my current lifestyle !

Dont Love You No More

For all the years that I've known you baby

I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold

(didn't you say)

If there's a problem we should work it out

So why you giving me the cold shoulder now

Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl

(tell me)

OK I know I was late again

I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)

But why are you making this thing drag on so long

(I wanna know)

I'm sick and tired of this silly game

(silly games)

Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame

It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes

But never thought that things would turn out this way

Cause I'm missing something now that your gone

(I see it all so clearly)

Me at the door with you in a state

(in a state)

Giving my reasons but as you look away

I can see a tear roll down your face

That's when you turned and said to me

I don't care babe who's right or wrong

I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

Those simple words hit so hard

They turned my whole world upside down

Girl, you caught me completely off guard

On that night you said to me

I just don't love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down

What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry

Feeling like a fool cause I let you down

Now it's, too late, to turn it around

I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry

I guess this time it really is goodbye

You made it clear when you said

I just don't love you no more

Artiste: Craig David