Excited !

Weekends were crazy but fulfillin !! hahahahaha !! Work week was pretty fine i guess. =)

I be on course agn for tml n tues ! Time to chill abit. heee!

Yday went Constance's shop agn aft wrk. Been a long long time since i last pop by. Brought a new top fr her agn ! And is lovin' it ! Met Mr. LKC for lunch as he was free. Weather was humid n he got me walkin in e sun wit him, lookin for plc to have our lunch. Oh well. 'Nice' exercise i tot. Thank u Mr. LKC ! I tink i got tan. zzzzz.. Den 7plus, rushed to Ikea to meet Bro & gf to get his cupboard. Damn! It happened to rain wen i stepped outta Constance's shop. zzzzz. Bein a well-disciplined adult here, I took bus instead o cab ! hahaha. I m proud o myself tt i was able to curb e temptation o takin taxi wen i was tired & was takin alot o barangs wit me too. kekeke. *gimme a pat on my shoulder, anyone?* hahaha.

Ikea's trip was tirin for me. Walked ard for almost 2hrs b4 we finalised which cupboard to buy. Gud buy i wld say cos Bro got $29 worth o wooden planks ! hahahahaha. We almost couldnt squeeze those planks onto e car. Damn funny !! We were all 'sweatin' away, worryin tt we mite have to request for home delivery. hahahahaha. Aft which, we went for late dinner, or rather supper. By e time we settled everythin wen we got back hme, we slept at abt 2am ? zzzzzz. Auntie Ang made me wash clothings b4 i could even rest my feet wen Bro n I got back hme at abt 12mn. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Today is another bz day ! Mornin woke up & was bz wit hsehold chores. Den Auntie Ang came back wit lunch for me n Bro. Sent Auntie Ang to wrk & went to supermarket to do my usual marketin. Along e way, i complaint to Bro tt my mp3 player is dyin on me & he suggested tt we could go n check out a new mp3 !! hahahahaa !! And he actually got me a new one !!!! hahahahahaha. Yea !! New player now & is lovin' it too !!! But i m alil disappointed cos pink colour isnt available at many stores & i settled for another not-so-nice colour. Still, it's a new player for me !!! Thanks Bro !! Tis is a form o motivation for me to wrk harder for my studies as Bro mentioned tt if i dun get gud grades, he will haf to confiscate e player back. Damn !!!! I shall get all As & Bs to show u ! U wait !!

Thank God tt I recovered fr my stiff neck & now, activities back to normal !!

Okay, i gona go explore my new mp3 player. Nitez pple.

Retake of my Life

I do wish for a new start at certain point o time wenever i see a clueless future. Oh well. It's another random thought tt struck my mind.

Yday b4 i got outta offc, my sup asked if i gona get promotion tis july. I was kinda surprised wit tt question ! Reason bein, i m writin my confirmation SAR for tis july as it will b my anniversary date. Rite. My LONGEST offc job so far ! I m kinda proud o myself thou. hahahahahaha. Hopefully a promotion will followsuit. =)

Today i went to SIM to submit the reply slip n stuffs. I felt kinda pressurised. I duno. My wrk seems to b pillin up & it can get rather irregular. I cant imagine once i got confirmed, more wrk comin my way wen i nid to juggle btw wrk n studies. I m prayin hard tt i m able to kip up e momentum & able to walk thru e next 2.5yrs. I dun wana give up on either one cos i m likin my job & i wana study too ! God Bless.

It's gona b a new phase o my life. I wana move on & not wantin to stay put at my current stage. I do see myself achievin more & doin more.

Okay, peaceful time for the next 2 days cos my sup wont b in offc ! hahahahaahahahaha.

Off to shower & slp !! Gud nite peeps ! kekekekeke..

Bz Monday

Monday had nv been so bz like today !!!

I wasnt in offc e whole of last week & tis mornin was crazy !! Right ... First meetin commenced at abt 10am, lasted for abt 30mins. Den at abt 10.45am, Boss said another meetin wit another grp of personnels at 11.15am. zzzz. Oh boy, it lasted till lunch time. And right b4 i went off to eat my food, I was told tt some of my wrk's deadline b end o tis week. Kill me pls ......................

It's like....tml i b on leave wen mornin i got some appt. Wed till fri, i still have pendin appts. zzzzz. Next week i b on course agn & i wont b in offc for 2days!! Damn .. Wrong timin to go for course. zzzz.

Oh well, tt was for tis morning... hahahahaha.

Last week was great ! As mentioned, i wasnt in offc for e whole week ! Managed to get quite alot o things done on my end. =) Weekends were rather fine i guess. Had quite abit of gathering wit frens & somehow i was feelin quite rundown too. Dun ask me y. Too much for me to explain anyway. LOL.

Okay, lunch time over !! Back to wrk !! Countin down to go hme ..

tttiiiccckkkk ttttooooccckkkkk......

Friend or Passer-by ?

At times i feel tt i m surrounded wit friends & at times i feel tt dey r only passer-by. I duno. It feel so near yet so far. hmmm. Tis kinda r/s is gona b hard to maintain.

Certain friends jus stay wit u for many many yrs & no matter wad dey would still b in contact wit u. And I thank God i have a handful o such friends. Needless to say, I do have those hi-bye friends ard. I see them wen i see them & some may even forget how i look like & vice-versa. Dun laff. It's common - especially u do have a wide network o friends.

Okay, tis may appear to b another random entry but I gona relate my own experience abt such characters : passer-by in ur life.

Wen i was much younger, say 19yrs old, I gotta know a grp o 'friends' tt go clubbing wit me every other weekends. We club hopped & drink till we got high. We danced & shaked till we dropped. Sounds happenin? U bet. hahahahahaha. Tis grp o fren stayed wit me for abt a yr & we got 'disbanded' due to our own committments & differences. Some settled down wit their newly built family, some started their careers & some went away fr e grp cos dey found tt our way o 'enjoyin life' were too hard to maintain. I duno.

It had been like ......5yrs ? 4yrs? since we last contacted. Apparently tis particular 'friend' o mine PMed me on FaceBook, askin for my contact num so tt we could have some catch-up session wit each other. By chance, i found out it was a 'scam'. hahahaha. Wrong word used BUT it was only a cover-up ! I was told tt e reason for them to contact me back was bcos dey wana me to do them some favours ? hahahahaha. Gud try, nice try. U got e wrong one, dearies. I aint tt dumb thou.

Like seriously, if dey have been in contact wit me, i dun mind them doin a sales presentation BUT DEY HAD STOPPED CONTACTIN ME FOR SO LONG !!!! And now tt dey wana promote their products, dey go ard findin 'old friends' whom had somehow disappeared in their life. WTF ???? I mean, wen i started helpin my fren to sell car, i DUN EVEN TOT O FINDIN THESE SO-CALLED FRIENDS !! Okay, I know i m over-reactin but still....how insincere these pple can b !!!!

End day, I m greatful tt most o my friends aint lidat.

Random Part 4

Random things tt i will do wen i m bored at nite. hahahahahaha.

kekekeke .. Introducin my new teddy beeeaarrrr - GalGal !! hahaha!!

Monday Super Blues

I got into offc feelin negative...

I duno. I felt sore abt saturday's issue. hahahaha. Call me petty but i hate it wen pple tried to tok wit some sarcasm. Damn.

Yea. Monday super blues. I din slp well last nite. Woke up feelin grouchy. My stomach is damn bloated. I felt like dere's a super big ball tt i m carryin ard. zzzzz. The feelin is weird for sure.

Tml back to NUH for e sickenin check-up in e mornin. I jus wana get over n done wit it. zzzz. I guess i b takin MC for e whole day & pay a visit to e bank for my study loan.

Wrk was kinda hectic. Alot o data entry today & discussion on cases tt almost drove me crazy. A gud session o debation & i lost. Well Done. zzzz. How annoyin can tt b. zzzzz.

I wana slp early tonite.

zzzz. Okay, i m gettin nowhere for tis entry. Bye pple.

Saturday @ Offc

Wrk was fine i guess but i got damn put off by some issues.

My offc buildin announced dere wld b an annual power shutdown exercise n everybody was advised to turn off our wrk station's power outlet n unplug everythin. So yea, those in offc on saturday wld have to double-check b4 we leave offc at 12.30pm. And accidents do happen. My wrk station (as in my PC) was illegally shut-down TWICE !! CCB !!! It's like i leave my PC on while i went down for toilet break cos e stupid management actually stop e water supply (auto flush system) for e toilet for e offices, leavin only e public toilet at level 1 wrkin. Damn .. I gotta go up n down for toilet, how pathetic can tt b. First thing first, i know tt everybody was tryin to make sure tt nothin went wrong, jus in case our PCs short-circuit n stuffs BUT how sickenin can tt b wen i left my desk for few minutes n i came back seein a total black screen wen i was in e midst o doin data-entry. zzzzzzzzzzz.

Seriously, i got so damn pissed tt my face turned red (wit anger, obviously !!!) In less than 10mins, my PC was shut-down in e same manner cos another colleague o mine did e same thing but removin wrong plug ? Or shld i blame it on e IT guy who installed my PC back den for usin wrong plug ? My colleague off my wrk station's power outlet fr e opposite wrk station. How nice. Once agn, my face turned freakin red & my breathe was goddamn heavy. I duno wad to react. I was reali doin some wrk n i turned away tokin to another colleague n wen i looked back into my screen, it was black screen agn.

I shouted, as usual. I couldnt take it cos i got reminded by e same problem tt i faced wen i was in Poly !! KNN !!! Back in my sch days, aft we ended our presentation, we were supposed to rite some short report to summarise e things tt we did for e day & many times, my classmate would off e wrong switch, causing my laptop to get illegal shut-down. WELL DONE LAH !!! I got so mad tt i couldnt even open up my mouth n scold pple. I bet u mus b thinkin y my screen went blackout. Simple - most o us dun put in battery cos prolonged chargin will spoil e batt & it was costly to buy a new one !!!

Now, back to e offc's scene. I was so damn upset wit anger till i reali duno wad to say. Aft i recovered, like a min ltr, I hollered 'y lidat agn' !!!! Tt colleague o mine countered back in a very sarcastic manner tt she dun mean it. I nv said tt she mean it but i was pissed for e fact tt my PC got fckin black-out 2 times within like 10mins !!! Moreover i was doin my wrk halfway. NBCCB ! Dey came back fr supervision & i seriously duno y dey wana do it agn wen dey cant even ask if we had alr did e check. U know, double efforts r redundant. Damnit !!! Argh !! But i m actually more irritated wit e annual power shut-down exercise lah. KNN. Make pple bz only. PCB.

Ridzwan, upon seein how red my face turned, said tt i MUS control my temper cos it reflect negative impression o myself. Screw it lah. I was e one who got it. And it was TWICE !!! He said i mus reali control my emotions cos wen i grow older, my body mite not b able to take it. Like, heelllloooo !!!! I din scold anyone. I was jus givin tt blardy red face o mine & i only commented - 'leave me alone for e next 3mins'.

Not tt i wana erupt abruptly BUT PLS understand tt i was DOIN MY WRK HALFWAY !!!! It's unhealthy for a PC to get illegal shut-down too. FCK. Screw it okay. I m jus wad i m. Dun like my attitude n character ? DUN TOK TO ME LOH. No harm to me. I dun reali to mingle wit certain pple at wrkplc oso.

Thou i can b super attitude at times BUT tt dun make me a loser. Wen i m in my normal mode, i m okay. I dun go ard, pokin into pple's issues n make a fuss outta it. hahahahaha.

Anyway, i find it amusin wen Ridzwan asked me to go get married soon. But listen to tis - he said - find someone to love me n to shower me wit lovessssss, so tt i can tone down my temper n b a proper woman. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Like seriously, none o my men can ever tamed me. Why is tt so ? Cos most o them dun see me throwin tantrum as dey can handle me well, knowin wad kinda standard i set. The catch is, wen i got pissed, it is bcos those pple r illogical, doin things tt I CANNOT ACCEPT. zzzzz. Okay, sound complicated but mayb my Mr. Lee can answer tt e best ? hahahahahahahhahaha... Oopz... =X

Den agn, i do admit tt my characters r too strong for men to take it. Frankly, i m wad i m. Dun like it, leave me alone. I dun go ard makin a fool outta myself.

I guess.........................I have n had offended pple. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

Fine, i b on a look-out for someone to love me & to shower me wit lovessssssss. hahahahaha. Pls send in ur resume tgt wit ur bank acct statement. A self-pic to b attached. Only shortlisted candidates will b notified. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I gona slp. I m slpy. Nitez pple. Slp tite.

Special Kind of Something

I happen to chance upon tis old song tt i was so goddamn in love wit wen i was in my teens.... Kavana - Special kind of something....

Somebody said that I would make it big

Somebody said that I would be the kid

to go all the way to go all the way

My daddy said learn and you will go far

You've got to reach out for the highest star

That's what he said

so that's what I did...

And nobody said that

I would feel this pain

Nobody said that I would feel this way

And I need to explain...

I've got something to give,

I need someone to hold,

I need a special kind of something

Coz I dont wanna be alone...

I've got to learn how to love,

I need to know how to care,

I've got a special kind of something

That I just need to share...

I didn't really think about the consequence,

I've got a one way ticket out of innocence,

But that was my dream, and this is my dream,

I can't spend another night on my own,

Never in my life felt so alone,

Darling, can I explain?

With you...

And if I keep pretending,

how will you know?

The message I keep sending,

I've got a special kind of something,

that I just need to show, ooh

Something to give, someone to hold,

Special kind of something,

don't wanna be alone,Ooh

Learn how to love,

know how to care,

Special kind of something

I just need to share...

How Irony

Tis mornin Vincent told me tt he is preparin for his weddin (nonono, i aint advertisin for Vincent !!!). I was surprised cos i tot he did smthin tt led to a early marriage ?? Oopz... I dun mean anythin. Tt was a spontateous tot okay. Anyway, I wana express my blessings to his marriage. Congrats, bro !!! Mus learn to do more for ur future wife & family !! Be responsible !! hahahahahaa.

I was tellin Amin abt tis gud news & it somehow developed to some new storyline along e way. Yes, my dotter asked wen is my turn to get married. Den i got reminded tt Ridzwan will b gettin married tis comin August & PPL's weddin b held @ e end o e mth. Addin on to e list, I tink i shld haf abt 3 more (and is countin...tick tock tick tock...) wedding dinners till e end o e yr too. Cousin will b throwin a weddin banquet in Dec, if i did not recall wrongly. And JoJo b givin birth to her 2nd kid in e ltr part o e yr too !! hahahahaha. In e midst o recession, pple 'created' another form o blessing. hmmmm. Nice !!! K, tt's nt e pt !!! The catch is, EVERYONE ASKIN WEN IS MY BLARDY TURN TO SETTLE DOWN !!! NB !!!

Tis question reali freak me out. Gettin married is NOT A PROBLEM BUT who can i get married to ? The thing is, I cant commit. DUN ask me y ok? I cant bring myself to like any guy tt come along. Mayb i got high expectations ? Ridzwan always said tt i aint tt gud, so yea, lower my expectations ! But i do not wan to settle for smthin less ? I duno. zzz. How ironic can it get rite ? hahahahaha. Alrite - Any takers for me ?? WAHAHAHAHAAHAA.

I m reachin e stage whereby i like bein single - nt tt i get to flirt everywhere i go BUT rather e freedom ? I had xbfs tt were super duper possessive tt i cant even go out wit my frens. hahaha. I m beginnin to dread hearin all these questions askin wen is my turn to get married n stuffs. PPLE, PLS STOP ASKIN ME SO. WEN IT'S TIME FOR ME TO SETTLE DOWN, I WOULD DO SO !!! zzzzzzzz.. I've got way too much things to fulfil nw. I dun wana regret few yrs down e road tt i give up my dream at tis pt o time.

Sayin abt our e other half, someone once told me tt it's pretty common nowadays to fantasize havin an invisible partner in our life. hahahaha. I duno. I mite reach tt stage. LOL.

Okay, i m on e line. B back tml folks !!

EMO state

I lost my cardigan !!!! A gift given for my 21st Bday !!!! Damn !!!! I couldnt find it anywhere at hme & i cant recall if i left it in someone else's car ?? Hur ... Wer is my cardigan !!!! I had been makin a fckin big fuss over it !!! hur hur hur ..

Lawrence said i can always buy a new one .. but e feel is diff !!! It's like u like smthin sooooo much & how willing r u to change it away ?!?!?!?! Okay, fine ! Since u asked me to get new one, i shld change U away too, LLWC !! *I hate u lah!!!*

Hur hur hur .. I wan my cardigan back !!! I m wondering if i threw it away by chance as i was packin my old clothings like few mths ago ??? hur hur hur .. Yes, I mentioned mths ago ... Cos i tot i washed it & chucked it somewhere in my room. Now tt i rmb havin tt cardigan, i tot i wana wear it BUT it's gone for gud !! NBCCB lah !!!

Whose fault ? My own fault loh. Cos i misplaced it myself, i guess. Hur hur hur.

Mayb it's reali time for new stuffs. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Back in Offc

Rather relaxin today as everybody is takin their own time to clear some back-log ? I duno. It dun seems pressurizin thou. LOL.

And i m havin e runs tis mornin (agn) !! NB !!! Next week i gona b gg back to NUH (yes !! e most fck up hospital in e WEST o SG !!) for my round o check-up. If e doc gona screw up like tt 'CKN' wen i was warded, i gona make tis issue BIG !!! NB !!! The INDIAN Doctor better nt tell me all over agn tt i m HEALTHY or else i will drill e hell outta him !! *chill chill*

Cant wait for next week as i b on course & monday is e only day i b in offc ! hahahaha. Den it will b end-May. June's comin !! But wer is my enrollment result to SIM ???!?!?! I m hopin for 2yrs pathway. PLLLSSSSSSSS ~! *prayin hard*

Yday was kinda tirin. Acc Bro to Funan to get his laptop den came back hme & started cookin at 6plus. Waited for Uncle Chong & Auntie Ang to come back hme only at 9pm for dinner. I almost fainted due to hunger. zzzzzz. Auntie Ang lah !! NB !!! Cannot take bus hme herself .. Die Die wan pple to drive her ard. WTH !!! Yes, I F her badly on e phone wen she called n informed me tt she b waitin for Uncle Chong to drive her back. FULL O SHITS !!! I dun make my guy drive me ard everyday...............

*LLWC, u got issue wit me postin Celine Dion's lyrics ??? Tt song is NICE okay !! My all time FAVOURITE !!! zzzz..*
*tis is wad i do wen i m preparin to go out yday!! I tink i put on weight agn !! * *top fr Jovial Wardrobe !!*

Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in you

I'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You're the one who saw me through

through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand

I could touch the sky

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love

I had it all

I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don't know that much

But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

You've been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

Random Part 3

Last nite i slept at 5am. Was on MSN wit a guy whom i din see for abt 4yrs alr ? hahaha. Okay, tt wasnt e reason tt kept me up till so early in e mornin but i had late nite supper wit bro at 3am !! hahahaha !!

Came back hme at 12mn aft meetin my fren & bro called me aft my shower to go NTUC 24hrs to do some marketing. I was so damn slpy while walkin ard to get e groceries. It was like walkin corpse, can !!!! And Jur Pt was damn quiet at tt timin. LOL. Auntie Ang tot i was outta wit some other men in e middle o e nite ? hahahaha.

Tml i gona cook dinner for family. It's Mothers' Day !!!

Have a nice weekend ahead.

Sick agn !!

I jus brought back a bottle o water chestnut drink & barley drink. I m feelin heaty. I woke up feelin lethargic & b4 i knew it, i m havin sore throat & flu. DAMN !!

Thank God tt Swine Flu alert is back to 'yellow' standard. zzzz. Else i b suspected o gettin e disease as well. God Bless !!

I b gg off fr offc early today. Say 3.30pm? I nid rest. I aint gona cook tonite. I needa slp !! No amt o 'liang teh' will wrk on me now. zzzz.

I gona nap in offc nw. Gd nite pple.

kekekeke. He finally call me today .. aft sooooo many days o absence !!!

*LLWC, wad's wrong wit me typin ya name BIG HERE ? U got problem wit tt ? Or u scare tt some other women will catch u tryin to b funny wit me ?? LOLz.*

Time flies

Yea, LLWC, indeed, we know each other for quite sometimes alr. Thanks for remindin me tis afternoon. haha. Lup u dip dip okies. I appreciated ur concern for me.

Okay, back to topic.

Alot o things happened & i started to retake some ugly past tt i once had. The feelin is weird, so near yet so far. It seems kinda fresh in my memory yet it happened so long ago. It occurred at least 4yrs ago. My new start took plc in late 2006 & my next phase o life shall start tis yr July.

I wish i could get those memories outta my mind for i know tt i had & have commited unforgivable mistakes. For e fact tt i had somehow gotten my punishment, i wish for a gud start. I dun wan these pple to come aft me for those silly issues n incidents.

How disastrous can it b wen u r bein haunted by memories tt dun get u anywhere ? I duno. I m forcin myself hard to let it go. Last nite's incident made me feelin insecure. I once lost everythin (and it was reali EVERYTHING tt included frens & job!!) cos o those pple & i m tryin very hard to maintain myself & my confidence level...

Precaution Action : Swine Flu

zzzzzzzz. Stupid Swine Flu. Make pple bz only. Screenin, temp takin & qurantine. WTH!!!!!

Today, i appealed to all my colleagues to take temp on their own as i had distributed thermometers to those who were in offc and to report their temp readin to my admin guy. zzzz. Very troublesome lah !!!

Hopefully SG b free fr these diseases.

God Bless.

Random Part 2

I jus finish cookin my dinner nt too long ago. I tink i cook too much today. hur hur hur. I gona get my bro to finish it up for me. LOL.

Auntie Ang is in KL now. Home's kinda peaceful thou. LOL. I m enjoyin tis serenity. Wahahahahhaha. I sound so mean, can !!! hahahahaa.

Tml back to wrk. Dere wil b newcomer joinin. I wonder if tis new guy is a handsome young chap ? LOL. Nw tt i m SINGLE, i can find a new bf ? Hahahahaha..

Random Part 1

I received a unknown sms fr a guy. He seems to have known for yrs as he got my old mobile num. zzzzzz.

I duno. Seems like I used to have alot o 'scandals'. LOL.

Okay, It's saturday !! I m gg out to have fun !!!