Whenever I m so dang free, I have e tendency to tink abt some crappy issues tt kinda bug me since donkey years ago...
I hate to say tis abt myself bt I reali cant make gud decision or rather I m someone who tend to b flicker-minded. Tis is wad I reali hate abt myself !!
U know, I had always call some o my guy frens 'MANBITCH' & it seems tt I m one too (no flaming pls - I M NT A MAN THOU !!!) !!
Okay, I meant I weigh too much pros n cons till I reali dun wish to decide on anything. Because o my indecisiveness, I had wronged myself w many opportunities lost ! One o e most significant one took place in 2007 tt I rejected one gud career prospect in e hope o makin things better in e back-den-current job. Dang. Till nw, I reali hate myself for tt. zzzzz. Such shortchange shldnt b allowed !!!
At times, I tot I can jus live life as it comes bt till certain extend, I started becomin super particular abt things tt I come across nw. I look for quality in every aspects. (I expect good service wen I step into a restaurant. I expect e bank tellers to clear their queue asap during lunch. I expect pple to understand wad I tell them w/out me havin to repeat myself for 2nd time.) BUT tt jus dun make me a better person rite ? oh well.
As I look for 'gud quality' in everything, I started tinkin tt it can b hard to achieve [especially in SG context]. AND wen I feel annoyed for NOT attaining tt kinda standard, I HATE MYSELF EVEN MORE !! =( Rite nw, I seriously dun wana tink abt any resolution alr cos it's all BULL-THE-SHIT !!!
Resolutions or promises are meant to b broken !! Why is tt so ?? Cos we r all human beings tt simply cant resist temptations ! If u r a woman n is constantly tellin urself to go on strict diet by cuttin down on 'good food' tt u like den one fine day ur motivation, determination n endurance jus chose to give way, U R DOOM w all those 'good food' down ur throat ! Uh-oh, dere goes ur slimmin plan !!
One more, I hate it wenever Mr. Lee said he will call me back n HE DID NOT !!! Rite, I know no link bt it kinda bug me nowadays. I duno y.
I guess I m grouchy these few days. Work is killin me & Studies reali SUX !! So much for puttin in efforts in tryin to get gud grades, it backfired. Either I din work smart or my standard simply dropped big time. One assignment gona b due tml. I m nt gona pin any hope on it alr.
K, I m off to slp.
